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Well, there's apparently many things to talk about. So i quit Abercrombie for good. Yay for that...even tho I miss all my friends there cuz they're bitches and they don't fucking call me. Whatever tho i'm not bitter. I now work at Rocks the Jewelers at the Hard Rock Hotel. It's amazing I love this job. Maria is fast becoming one of my best friends...She's so awesome and funny and real and genuine. We sit there and gossip and talk about men and our statuses in our lives and she gives me advice and i give her advice. I love her to death. I make hella bank because apparently i'm a really good seller. Although i don't wanna do too good cuz then they'll up my Sales Goal...yikes no thank you. Lets see what else...oh HAWLEY'S COMING TO VEGAS IN ABOUT LIKE...5 DAYS! i'm sooo excited! I miss her more than anything...she's the only one that still talks to me on the regular from back home...its really sad. Steph and Jen haven't even tried to talk to me since i left dean. I think that Joe thinks that i think he's an asshole for just up and dating Andy...but i really don't. Idk why i think that...but i feel like everytime i talk to him, he's like guarded. Like i'm about ready to tear his throat out for it. But i'm so over it, i had my tears and i've moved on about it. Jen Dear i haven't talked to in FOREVER!! but that's prolly cause she's hella busy with classes and the plays and the likes...but i feel like all my friends are drifting apart. A part of me thinks that its becuase i'm gearing up for a situation in which calls me to withdraw from life pretty much. I don't know what that situation is, but I feel something like it coming. Where I might have to put all my efforts into this...and not have friends...I got a Fake ID and I've been using it like CRAZY! I go out to eat and it's right there...all kinds of handy! LoL! Since i've been rakin in money like there's no tomorrow...I've been spending it like there is no tomorrow! LoL...i bought so many new clothes its rediculous! Jessi is having a bad effect on me...too bad i love her for it...I've become a better dresser for it! LoL...Call me a label whore...I DON"T CARE!! hahaha....its awesome! I'm lookin hott..and people are always complimenting me! hahah....i also bought a sidekick! Love that thing...literally its my world! LoL...and I bought my sister a new iPod and myself one too...I also bought Hawley her plane ticket! LoL...looooove it! I don't know what's gonna go down when she gets out here...I kinda wanna go to LA! she would LOVE LA...but i really don't wanna have to navigate the Navigator downtown u know!? Plus that way we can see Drew...i'm a little steamed that he can't come to Vegas...again! It irritates me! Speaking of things that irritate me...STEPHEN! I can't believe he irritates me...idk...i don't even know if i like him becuase he's a great guy or if i like him becuase I can't have him. He was hella fun and really an all around GREAT guy...But I mean...i'm one of those people...i like the chase! And if I don't have to chase him...will I still like him u know? Oh wait...i just realized i have to delve into the situation for anyone to understand this. So I dated Steve for like...a week. Within that week, we had said really intense things...things that were true on my end...but i think we had a miscommunication issue where he thought that I mean that when i said i heart u...that i meant... i love you...and i didn't mean that! Either way he said that it was too intense and that his heart didn't belong to me, that it belonged to someone else. Which I took really hard. Anyway we remained friends...and after a little while...he told me that he was moving to San Fransisco to be with a guy of whom he's liked for a hella long time. So fast forward to moving time...he comes out to Vegas with his Aunt...who was REALLY awesome btw. And we hung out for a long time...i actually had to go to work that night...but i didn't care cuz i'd rather have stayed with him. So we got a little tipsy...rode the NY,NY rollercoaster...FRONT ROW i might add..and then, we made out in the hallway of a casino...got caught by security...and escorted back to the room LoL...funny times...but then he said some seriously bad shit..."You know what I love about Vegas?!" "WHat's that?" "What happens in Vegas...Stays in Vegas." YOU KNOW DAMN WELL I SHOULDA CUT HIM DOWN RIGHT THEN! But idk...i couldn't. I liked him too much...thats bad isn't it? Well he told me recently that things weren't workin out to well in SanFran and he thinks he made a mistake going out there. I don't want to be happy that he's not doing well out there...but I can't help it. It gives me a little vindication to know that he passed up a good opertunity to be with me, and maybe with all that's going on, he'll come back to me!? Ugh I know I should take my own advice and move the fuck on! but somehow...i really really can't. God forbid i listen to myself once in a while. Anyways! Hawley came to visit me in Vegas! It was fun, i just hope she had a good time! We did alot..we even went to LA which was fun! But it was when I had to work so we only stayed for a few hours...next time we go...its gonna be for like...days! LoL...I realized how much i missed her. and crazy things happened...I talked to Duece..apparently...i'm his friend and that he didn't delete me from Myspace! Out of control! LoL...i thought i'd be cut fo' sho...anywho...I'm gonna go and get this computer fixed...its killin me! LoL...aright ttyl! peace!