life. or something like it.
Today, i turned 19. which is quite an accomplishment for someone who has almost died more times than I have fingers. and today, like all my birthdays thus far, as full of mixed emotions. On the one hand it was effervescently amazing: spanish ballads, smoking with my college family, getting caught by my RH and him powerless to make me care, breakfast in bed, lots of sex....... BUT. BUT. BUt. there was also me freaking out and shutting down for no reason, being a half hour late to hebrew and thus almost missing the quiz because i thought it started at 3:30 (and not 3) for some ridiculous reason, and then there was teh most depressing Israeli movie EVER. well they are all depressing when it has to do with the army and love and people my age, but this one... it was beautifully shot, which just made it worse.
I am leaving for oregon in a month. My friends don't believe I'll come back, but I will. I'm scared. and Excited. And Eager to prove to myself that really, I am not just intellectually an adult, but can also lead an adult life. I can support myself and commit to another person and not shut everyone out when they get past the first few walls.
so her'es to adulthood. May I grow fat and wrinkly with many stories.
I am leaving for oregon in a month. My friends don't believe I'll come back, but I will. I'm scared. and Excited. And Eager to prove to myself that really, I am not just intellectually an adult, but can also lead an adult life. I can support myself and commit to another person and not shut everyone out when they get past the first few walls.
so her'es to adulthood. May I grow fat and wrinkly with many stories.