Update for the masses... or lack there of
well thursday marked the beginning of my last year of school... ever. it was nice to get back and see people that i had lost touch with. man i saw almost everyone.it was great. this year is going to be great even if i do bad in school because everyone will be there. but i guess going back made me wonder how it be if i never went to WNA and just went to RSHS. it just leaves me with so many questions. and i hate pondering about the past. but sometimes you cant help it you know. but also seeing everyone kinda made me feel bad because ill only spend a year with them and then ill leave... again. jesus i cant stay in one place for very long. i know so many people all over the place. i guess thats why its feels i dont have many people to go to. to because everyone i know has just become distant. but this year is going to be good. yes it is. no matter what.
we have no money. its kind of funny because its been like this for the past few years. we are able to make it look like we have money but we dont. and i dont know if i am going to get this job because umm... well id ont know if i really want it now. but i need money.
emily leave for college on tuesday. i dont know what to think. i am happy for her getting into college and all. i wouldnt have it any other way. but i mean who is going to sit in a car with me listening to rough draft over and over again till the battery dies. jill would but i dont know how often i will see jill. or who is going to get so pissed at my political stupidity that they begin to shake with anger. hehehe. its not like i wont see her again but its another one of those awesome friends i know i am going to grow distant with. and there is nothing i can do. i am going grow distant from everyone. its always been like that and there was never a thing i could do about it. and i doubt there ever will be. and i hate it. i havent had a solid group of friends to hang out with since middle school. i dont know what to think. maybe i am just a drifter.
just forget about it, anything i said about it
drive away tonight you think it's fine
you put it all inside and run, and never look behind
it's all the same besides the fact that it's mine
think of me when you're dreaming and know
that i'm wide awake and thinking of you
cause i swear when you're there alone
know that i'm wide awake tonight
you could hold my heart
it's all yours if you want
just forget about, set your mark and keep around it,
thoughts that are, just the opposite of you
it happens everytime you fall
you write it off and say "well i'll be fine just let me try too"
and sing to me, when you're sinking
and you know that i'm wide awake and watching for you
cause i swear when you're there alone
know that i'm wide awake tonight
you could hold my heart
it's all yours if you want it
i'm letting you know now
dont wait...just tell me all about it
my latest obsession. Letter Kills Hold My Heart.
i get obsessed with these song that always are directed to someone special. yet there is no one special for me to think of when i hear it. its funny.
good things always happen so slowly. its annoying and i am too impatient to wait its like when you hungry and you cook a pizza but you take it out early and its not done but you eat anyway and it makes you sick.
ill leave you with a thought...
there i left you with a thought. note me to say what you think it is :-P
night everybody
we have no money. its kind of funny because its been like this for the past few years. we are able to make it look like we have money but we dont. and i dont know if i am going to get this job because umm... well id ont know if i really want it now. but i need money.
emily leave for college on tuesday. i dont know what to think. i am happy for her getting into college and all. i wouldnt have it any other way. but i mean who is going to sit in a car with me listening to rough draft over and over again till the battery dies. jill would but i dont know how often i will see jill. or who is going to get so pissed at my political stupidity that they begin to shake with anger. hehehe. its not like i wont see her again but its another one of those awesome friends i know i am going to grow distant with. and there is nothing i can do. i am going grow distant from everyone. its always been like that and there was never a thing i could do about it. and i doubt there ever will be. and i hate it. i havent had a solid group of friends to hang out with since middle school. i dont know what to think. maybe i am just a drifter.
just forget about it, anything i said about it
drive away tonight you think it's fine
you put it all inside and run, and never look behind
it's all the same besides the fact that it's mine
think of me when you're dreaming and know
that i'm wide awake and thinking of you
cause i swear when you're there alone
know that i'm wide awake tonight
you could hold my heart
it's all yours if you want
just forget about, set your mark and keep around it,
thoughts that are, just the opposite of you
it happens everytime you fall
you write it off and say "well i'll be fine just let me try too"
and sing to me, when you're sinking
and you know that i'm wide awake and watching for you
cause i swear when you're there alone
know that i'm wide awake tonight
you could hold my heart
it's all yours if you want it
i'm letting you know now
dont wait...just tell me all about it
my latest obsession. Letter Kills Hold My Heart.
i get obsessed with these song that always are directed to someone special. yet there is no one special for me to think of when i hear it. its funny.
good things always happen so slowly. its annoying and i am too impatient to wait its like when you hungry and you cook a pizza but you take it out early and its not done but you eat anyway and it makes you sick.
ill leave you with a thought...
there i left you with a thought. note me to say what you think it is :-P
night everybody