this gift is my curse for now...
SHe belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.
She is alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...
Yellowcard- Gifts and Curses
so maybe that song has made me realize one of my reasons for going into the special forces. i know it sounds stupid but so do all my other reasons for going. maybe no one wil understand why i do it. but i understand. and isnt that all that matters? maibe ill neet someone who understands it one day. but i dont care if i dont. my mom told me i was stupid for wanting to go into the SF. this was after watching Black Hawk Down. i watched it with my brother and my dad in VA too. and my dad asked if i still wanted to go into SF. i feel like they are trying to scare me away from doing it because they both picked the movie. i wasnt surprised when my dad picked it but i was when my mom picked it. i mean thats not all they have picked we watched platoon and a bunch other war movies. and to tell you the truth they make me that much more anxious. so dont bother trying to stop me. youg have better luck stopping a freigth train on a dime.
i think we might be moving out of earl's somewhat soon. things are on the rocks. and she wonders why we dont come out of the basement. they havent talked to each other without fighting since BJ came home. its a load of crap but guess what? 12 months and 8 days or less till i am gone for 30 months. so i have lasted this lond i can make it anothe year.
so warped tour fucking rocked. i mean it was just awesome. even though it poured insanely ir was awesome. it was great hanging out with nikki again too. there is not much to comment on about warped except that it fucking rocked and that "she doesnt belong here! she listens to rap an- and Jessica Simpson!" hahahahaha
so umm i duess my dad and i have kinda patched things up i dunno. its awkward. ill explain later.
well i guess thats all for now. signing off. later!
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.
She is alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...
Yellowcard- Gifts and Curses
so maybe that song has made me realize one of my reasons for going into the special forces. i know it sounds stupid but so do all my other reasons for going. maybe no one wil understand why i do it. but i understand. and isnt that all that matters? maibe ill neet someone who understands it one day. but i dont care if i dont. my mom told me i was stupid for wanting to go into the SF. this was after watching Black Hawk Down. i watched it with my brother and my dad in VA too. and my dad asked if i still wanted to go into SF. i feel like they are trying to scare me away from doing it because they both picked the movie. i wasnt surprised when my dad picked it but i was when my mom picked it. i mean thats not all they have picked we watched platoon and a bunch other war movies. and to tell you the truth they make me that much more anxious. so dont bother trying to stop me. youg have better luck stopping a freigth train on a dime.
i think we might be moving out of earl's somewhat soon. things are on the rocks. and she wonders why we dont come out of the basement. they havent talked to each other without fighting since BJ came home. its a load of crap but guess what? 12 months and 8 days or less till i am gone for 30 months. so i have lasted this lond i can make it anothe year.
so warped tour fucking rocked. i mean it was just awesome. even though it poured insanely ir was awesome. it was great hanging out with nikki again too. there is not much to comment on about warped except that it fucking rocked and that "she doesnt belong here! she listens to rap an- and Jessica Simpson!" hahahahaha
so umm i duess my dad and i have kinda patched things up i dunno. its awkward. ill explain later.
well i guess thats all for now. signing off. later!