i've created my own prison.-CREED.
aaaaaaahhhhh......
shoot me in the face five times right now....i haven't updated in nearly two months. a quick rundown of what's happened.
*i went to france. as in paris, france. it was amazing. spent ten days of my summer there
*cheerleading conditioning started, um.....sabrina quit just the other day, just like i was hoping and expecting
*uh, jake broke up with me
*john and i started our stupid little charade again
and i can't figure out how to make myself happy anymore....and it's pissing me off. oh, and i went to a car show in ohio with my dad this weekend. so yeah. um, what else is a major stress right now? hmmm.... let's see here...
*everyone in my family pretty much hates john, and is begging me not to go back out with him
*my g-pa might have fucking LUNG CANCER
*jackie's friend lisa who had lung cancer died last week umm......
* i can't fucking STAND myself or how things are going with my life, cuz i have no control
*my fucking DAD.....AHHHHH enough said, but basically he's trying to control me, um....everything has to go his way, or nothing goes at all. um, yeah! a lot of the shit he says really hurts my feeling. he doesn't trust me. he doesn't think i can SOLVE MY OWN PROBLEMS....he expects so much of me, and i can't handle it sometimes. i just totally lost it, and bawled while ago. it sucked. i was in physical pain. but yeah...i'm at emily's now, so i'm getting better. or FEELING better. i don't know, i'm just having a hard time getting through things and sorting myself out lately...so yeah. but yeah...that's my life right now. sorry if this doesn't make sense...i'm really distracted by all the wrestling going on behind me
"i cry out to god, seeking only his, decision....i've created my own prison..."
DANNI