to much to handle..

[yellowbird25]

wow, were should i start, um...well the guy i like chris today i found out who his sister is and i went to schoolw ith her for three years, i feel so werid its like every single person in the school besides me knows him, and every single person has talked to him in some way. i feel so left out. i really like him, my 3rd hour teacher mr. kevonian was talkign about love and dating, it got me thinking i started matching up what he was saying to how i feel about chris, and then it all started to match up. and that scared me so i have no idea what the future is gonna bring weather i tqalk to him at all this year or not, but last ngiht i ahd this stupid dream cuz i went to bed thinking about chris and the dream was that i ended up being best friends with his girlfriend and i thoguht that was pretty bizzar. but idk, im scared that next year hell be a sinor and it will be evan hareder to see him go, evan if that means saying goodbye to what i never knew, he will be graduating the same time as pat, it will just be hard,and what if i dont see him at all next year i guess it would make things easyer, for to forget him i soppse...well thats enough for me..lol.

well my birthday was fun..i had dinner with my family and a movie with my aunt it was fun, and next weekend my friend megan mgiht be spending the ngiht so i cnt wait! im so excited!! lol.

qnd someone i want to say something to..that im not gonna be the one to say that im sorry because i have nothing to be sorry for and thats finnal...you always have to to have everything be your way and im sorry, but im not gonna sit here and take this shit from you its just not fair, im not gonna let you hurt me like this every time we fight so when ever your ready to talk ill listern and comment..just rememebr no matter what ill always love you..