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[yellowbandaid]

i actually wrote about my friendship with everyone for my english honors personal narrative. and i feel so lame and guilty. i'm not mad, and i never was. i never will be. if you're upset with me, i'm sorry. i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry. i'll say it how ever many times you want me to. i've actually thought this whole incident over, and it's really lame of me to stress over it. but i want to, and i won't rush you guys. if you don't want to forgive me yet, then i'm fine with it. i only let you be when i know that you don't want to talk to me. it's not that i'm mad at you or anything. i know for a true fact that there's no point in trying to make up conversation if you don't want to talk to me. i'm fine with that. but it makes my insides crash, my eyes burn. i was crying in freaking physical education during attendance. i'm a crybaby. i don't want pity, to make you guys feel that i'm too dependent. and that i'm such a loner that i always need someone there, that i'm too needy. i've lived as a crybaby. i want everything to be how i want it to be. but i can't. i'm greedy, selfish, needy, and stupid. i don't even know what the hell i'm writing about here. when the time comes, i will apologize as many times as i need to.

right now, i am quizzing wj on bio!