10 more days
i continue to stare blankly across the room. nothing swimming in my thoughts tonight. i can hear the buzzing of the dishwasher and the faint dialogue on tv.
i try to think of you but the thoughts don't last. i am almost bored by it. what else is there to think about when i've already thought about things to death. maybe IT has finally run its course?? i hope so and i want so. so has IT finally run its course? i don't know. only the universe knows, or i'd like to think.
i am in the state of utter boredom and confusion. sometimes i am calm it feels so alien. other times i feel like i am on the verge of an anxiety attack.
so i THINK i am ready. ready to get back to where i was, to where i was headed. this is my journey and i want to carry on. my life here ends in a few days and the great unknown of my home is welcoming me with open arms. i will happily oblige.
i try to think of you but the thoughts don't last. i am almost bored by it. what else is there to think about when i've already thought about things to death. maybe IT has finally run its course?? i hope so and i want so. so has IT finally run its course? i don't know. only the universe knows, or i'd like to think.
i am in the state of utter boredom and confusion. sometimes i am calm it feels so alien. other times i feel like i am on the verge of an anxiety attack.
so i THINK i am ready. ready to get back to where i was, to where i was headed. this is my journey and i want to carry on. my life here ends in a few days and the great unknown of my home is welcoming me with open arms. i will happily oblige.