just one of those days

[yellow_rogue]

2 hrs ago
i had a compulsory 1 hr lecture from my Her
this was about
attitude, religion, attitude, sin, bf/gf, attitude, being society's trash

i just sat there
and let her berate me
apparently it was the harsh truth
if the truth was that harsh
why
didn't i feel one bit of guilt?

she talks to somebody regularly..
i wonder why does she still have to let it out to/on me.
i bet that person is advicing her to be patience and talk it out with me
sigh.

why can't my stupid head register "do not rebel"
"do not rebel"

try to listen for once

but i can't
damnit
i can't

its like forcing me to drink chinese medicine 15 yrs ago..
i..throw up when the expensive shit touches my mouch.
and then i cry

15 yrs later
i...hide all the medicine they buy
so they cannot boil it for me
hohohoho