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Ok It’s only been a week and I am SICK OF NUTRITION SHAKES! I mean, their great once and a while, but every single freakin’ day, they taste so…gross after a while. You realise just how synthetic the flavours are after a few cans and now it is driving me out of my mind! Oh well, I gained back 3 pounds in water weight now that I’m drinking more regularly again, hurray! That’s the plus side to it! Hurray I have an appetite again! This is bad in a way because now come the craving for real food!
Just today I went for my traditional Sunday dinner and my grandmother’s house, and died. She had barbequed chicken breast, Lebanese salad, vegetables, potatoes, and humus! I was standing their drooling the whole time. What did I get? A nutrition shake and vegetable strained soup (remember it can’t be chunky or too thick!). Ouch. But that’s ok, I must try my best not to think about food! One things for sure, is I don’t miss junk food, not one bit! To be honest I haven’t even had full cravings for meat and veggies yet. I regard it more as a luxury then a want. Its just hard watching someone else have that luxury and you can’t. So it’s not so horrible.
Today I’m spending a lot of time catching up on homework, because I have decided to return to school starting Monday! Yes, I missed 5 consecutive days, but I am hoping to make up for it as soon as possible. I think I’m dreading chemistry and history the most.
On another note, I am currently discussing plans to go away this Christmas break to Lebanon with my friend Jose. We both have family there so it would be nice to travel together, gain some independence. It will also be nice to go shopping and the beach together, we’ll have so much fun! If it works out. It all depends on my healing. She might go herself if I can’t come but still! It would be so nice! I really want to brush up on my Arabic, it is starting to brush off a bit. Sometimes I’ll sit and think in Lebanese and listen intently on my parents conversations in my mother tongue as to not forget it.
My 3 deeds/happy experiences today:
~ I held my sister Kayla for the long car ride cause she was tired
~ I stopped my sister Jessica’s foot from being crushed by a table
~ I feel so loved and encouraged by my family and friends
XOXO