Rebuttal
I think now would be an excellent time to express some thoughts I've been sitting on for the last month or so. They are tied in closely with my relationship with April, so be warned.
I love April. She's a smart, fun, and ultimately thought-provoking woman. And when you love someone like her, it's easy to ignore the flaws and imperfections that are so obvious to other people.
Thing is, when someone you love cuts you out of their life - not once, but twice - as completely as April cut me out of hers, it's hard not to feel slighted. Bitter, even.
But, I've come to forgive her for her coldness. But there are two factors to my forgiveness. The Reason, and the Why. The reason I COULD forgive her was because I love her. Why I DID forgive her was because I think maybe she doesn't realize how she hurts people, a flaw inherent in the "not worth anyone's time" argument.
I'm sorry if you feel like cat shit, April. But if you feel that way, it's because you made it that way. I had no opportunity to make that so, especially when the only contact I have with you now are infrequent, inadequate correspondence in a virtual network of light and symbols. Smoke and mirrors, babe. It doesn't work. Maybe if you had made some effort to SHOW me, not TELL me, that you cared (like I had asked, if you'll remember), I wouldn't have been put in that position.
I love April. She's a smart, fun, and ultimately thought-provoking woman. And when you love someone like her, it's easy to ignore the flaws and imperfections that are so obvious to other people.
Thing is, when someone you love cuts you out of their life - not once, but twice - as completely as April cut me out of hers, it's hard not to feel slighted. Bitter, even.
But, I've come to forgive her for her coldness. But there are two factors to my forgiveness. The Reason, and the Why. The reason I COULD forgive her was because I love her. Why I DID forgive her was because I think maybe she doesn't realize how she hurts people, a flaw inherent in the "not worth anyone's time" argument.
I'm sorry if you feel like cat shit, April. But if you feel that way, it's because you made it that way. I had no opportunity to make that so, especially when the only contact I have with you now are infrequent, inadequate correspondence in a virtual network of light and symbols. Smoke and mirrors, babe. It doesn't work. Maybe if you had made some effort to SHOW me, not TELL me, that you cared (like I had asked, if you'll remember), I wouldn't have been put in that position.