You are my only sunshine. You make all my skies grey. You'll never know dear how much you hurt me.
Well tonight I went out with a bunch of guys to the Eastern Hills Mall to eat 10 cent wings. Oh man I love my rugby friends. I was in a car today with Gorman when he got into an accident after school. Then on the way home from dinner Mike Macko almost got me killed, not even kidding around.
Today I found some things out that disheartened me. After me caring so much for a girl for such a long time, she decides maybe it's time to have a relationship with another guy. I guess I'm holding her back or I was, not anymore. It's not like I was anyways, obviously she doesn't remember all those other guys in between, I wasn't holding her back then. I don't know if anyone has gotten stomach aches over other people, but it sucks. It just feels like I was never good enough or I wasted my time. I have nothing to show nor does she from all the shit we've been through. I wish it was just so easy to not fucking care, but it's not. I'm sad, and disappointed. But hey, someday she'll realize some serious shit and hopefully she'll regret some of things she's done or said to me. I'm not all innocent in this whole thing either, I've said and done some shit I regret even tonight. I try to put it in the past but I'll never be able to. I thought we burried the whole hatchet until this thing came about. Maybe I'm just gonna be a jealous lonely asshole for the rest of my life.
This weekend is coming up and I can't go to college football combine or Junior Prom. On top of all this I'm fucking up in math and that's gonna ruin my GPA and fuck me over for college. GOD FUCKING DAMMIT... Maybe that God Damn car should've hit us and hurt only me.
Today I found some things out that disheartened me. After me caring so much for a girl for such a long time, she decides maybe it's time to have a relationship with another guy. I guess I'm holding her back or I was, not anymore. It's not like I was anyways, obviously she doesn't remember all those other guys in between, I wasn't holding her back then. I don't know if anyone has gotten stomach aches over other people, but it sucks. It just feels like I was never good enough or I wasted my time. I have nothing to show nor does she from all the shit we've been through. I wish it was just so easy to not fucking care, but it's not. I'm sad, and disappointed. But hey, someday she'll realize some serious shit and hopefully she'll regret some of things she's done or said to me. I'm not all innocent in this whole thing either, I've said and done some shit I regret even tonight. I try to put it in the past but I'll never be able to. I thought we burried the whole hatchet until this thing came about. Maybe I'm just gonna be a jealous lonely asshole for the rest of my life.
This weekend is coming up and I can't go to college football combine or Junior Prom. On top of all this I'm fucking up in math and that's gonna ruin my GPA and fuck me over for college. GOD FUCKING DAMMIT... Maybe that God Damn car should've hit us and hurt only me.