"Smile, its a simple way to spread God's love"

[yellow5_83]

why is it just when i think that things can change and are , and that people support me in the decisions that i choose to make in life.. i am proved to be wrong once again. is it so hard for people to be happy for me and all of me? all i wanted was some people there to support me in a huge life decision. if you didnt want ot be there even the slightest bit, then you shouldnt have come. it meant a lot to have you there but it would have meant more to be if i felt you went bc you wanted to not bc you felt you had to. why is it that you cant just excpet that fact that we are differnt and not dwell on it. why do you have to make comments? why cant you just keep your mouth shut? if you dont agree.. that is fine but keep it to yourslef. you have no idea how hard this whole thing has been and how much i have had to overcome thorugh out it all. it would have been alot easier if you would have been there for me but even easier if you wouldnt have said anything as compared to what you did say. if you want to say something say it to ME! not the whole internet world. i am so sick of stupid away messages or profiles... they are your profiles.. so why are they about me? do you n ot realize that i read them too? i thought we were friends? well if we were you would know that i wouldnt like that and you would stop ..but instead they continue. i thought they might stop after you witnessed a part of what ia m going through but i was wrong.. it still persists. there are very limted groups in my life; family and friends are two of them. when my family fails me.. i expect to go to my friends but who do i go to when they fail you too?
i dont know what else ot say.. i can pray that things willl change but will it be a waste of time.. who knows
~me