"to love someone is to see the face of God"
soi know that i never writ ein this thing but i never know what to say bc i never know what ia m feeling.. well right now i am frustrated and confused and stressed and tired.
i am not doing too well in school, well by my standards but i am conpensating that with getting involved a lot which is what i want but i feel that there are very select poeple that are happy for me. isnt that the most importnatthing? to make sure that i am having a good time doing things that i love to do? well then why am i constantly getting shit from people? i am sory that i dont have a million hours to spend with you or even 5 for that matter but things will settle down and i will have time. and if you still lived in towers and were involed liek you wanted to be instead of baling on me then you would be busy too and wouldunderstnad what iam going though. i knw that once you move off campus you just dont care anymore but i still love on campus and i still do care so back off.
my feelings are very discombabulated right now and i dont know what to do. i am waiting for god to send me a sign on what to do but it hasnt happend yet so i all i can do it wait.
this weekend i am going away on a site leader retreat which i have been looking forward to for so long and i have worked really hard to achieve and i am so excited but i dont feel that my excited is shared by others.
i heard some relaly wback news tonight about someone whom i have known for a really long time. so if any of you know katie pepper or have even heard of her or even if you havent , please pray for her mom. she is really sick right now and she really needs as many people praying for her righht now.. remmeber "miracles happen everyday" and i think that it is her turn.
that is it for now.. hope everyone is doing well
lauren :)
i am not doing too well in school, well by my standards but i am conpensating that with getting involved a lot which is what i want but i feel that there are very select poeple that are happy for me. isnt that the most importnatthing? to make sure that i am having a good time doing things that i love to do? well then why am i constantly getting shit from people? i am sory that i dont have a million hours to spend with you or even 5 for that matter but things will settle down and i will have time. and if you still lived in towers and were involed liek you wanted to be instead of baling on me then you would be busy too and wouldunderstnad what iam going though. i knw that once you move off campus you just dont care anymore but i still love on campus and i still do care so back off.
my feelings are very discombabulated right now and i dont know what to do. i am waiting for god to send me a sign on what to do but it hasnt happend yet so i all i can do it wait.
this weekend i am going away on a site leader retreat which i have been looking forward to for so long and i have worked really hard to achieve and i am so excited but i dont feel that my excited is shared by others.
i heard some relaly wback news tonight about someone whom i have known for a really long time. so if any of you know katie pepper or have even heard of her or even if you havent , please pray for her mom. she is really sick right now and she really needs as many people praying for her righht now.. remmeber "miracles happen everyday" and i think that it is her turn.
that is it for now.. hope everyone is doing well
lauren :)