secretly
or not so secretly, i think i've been dreading today
or maybe i'm just really confused at everything that's been going on --
i'm taking it all as i can and as i will, but i think for as cool headed i try to be, things will still get to me, regardless of whether they're in my head or not. my subconscious has been going crazy in dreams lately.
i don't want to have to go to a funeral today. who says they do? but at the same time, i want to be there, because we're all together on this one, emily touched that many people in her life, and it'll be good to be with everyone to celebrate her life... yeah.
i need to be more appreciative of these people around me.. i could probably start that with some honesty, with learning to speak my mind from time to time.
i think i've spent so much time repressing everything that i don't even know what good action/judgement is as opposed to bad. who knows? i guess i'll just have to figure it out as i go.
or maybe i'm just really confused at everything that's been going on --
i'm taking it all as i can and as i will, but i think for as cool headed i try to be, things will still get to me, regardless of whether they're in my head or not. my subconscious has been going crazy in dreams lately.
i don't want to have to go to a funeral today. who says they do? but at the same time, i want to be there, because we're all together on this one, emily touched that many people in her life, and it'll be good to be with everyone to celebrate her life... yeah.
i need to be more appreciative of these people around me.. i could probably start that with some honesty, with learning to speak my mind from time to time.
i think i've spent so much time repressing everything that i don't even know what good action/judgement is as opposed to bad. who knows? i guess i'll just have to figure it out as i go.