Jul 26, 2006 21:18
I've had a tornado in my head lately and I'm having a hard time trying to figure out how to deal with it in a constructive way. What if your purpose in life is to constantly be brought down(self inflicted or otherwise), to constantly be in fear, to never be able to breathe out or relax. I'm scared man, I'm afraid to feel comfortable...safe.
Why???
Just about everything else I thought or believed, the exact opposite has happened. Why should anything else be different. I'm so afraid to lose. How do you keep a positive outlook on live or care about anything at all? I'll give it a couple years, see where life is going, and then decide. Just know I'm taking you with me because you are the only thing that matters to me, the only one I need or want.
My hands look old.