Outty 5000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I may be developing a new escape plan in my head. The house boat idea is a super fantasy and as much as I think it would be wonderful to live on one, it's just unrealistic. But anyways, this new idea/plan calls for me to drop every thing and move to Arizona to start a new life. I was thinking about it; I'm not in school, I don't have a real job or a career, I don't have kids or "another" to stick around for. My friends have their own shit/lives going on and to deal with. My family is here but they will understand and I vehemently hate cold weather. So why am I still here??
I know the answer...
The answer is fear. Fear of uncertainty, fear of the unknown, fear of failing. Fear that Yellow Stone National Park is going to erupt just as I get settled in(the gods hate me).
I have to get over it and just go for it. No one believes in me, they all think I am weak...and maybe that is mostly my fault. I'll prove them wrong yet. I'll prove you all wrong. I'm not staying. You'll see.
I know the answer...
The answer is fear. Fear of uncertainty, fear of the unknown, fear of failing. Fear that Yellow Stone National Park is going to erupt just as I get settled in(the gods hate me).
I have to get over it and just go for it. No one believes in me, they all think I am weak...and maybe that is mostly my fault. I'll prove them wrong yet. I'll prove you all wrong. I'm not staying. You'll see.