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On the 11th (suday) i turn 18. Im glad when i was born my parents took the schools advice and advanced me. i'm glad that they chose to make me a youngin for my grade as oppose to old for my grade. as i approach my 18th birthday ive thought... maybe even too much... about who ive become, who i am, and what i have left to accomplish. i've concluded plenty of things about myself but consitently reach a conclsion that is, i am incredibly lucky... and thankful for that to everyone who contributes to that. for the past 18 years ive been blessed with opportunities and experiences some people will never be able to enjoy. ive been surrounded with friends and i personally feel in debt to them for what they have taught me, even at bad times. i've loved and lost more family members than i want to reccount but have grown as a better person from those situations. i've given my best to my parents and family and kayla in hopes that they all realize how grateful i am to them for the things they do, or have done. i try to make sure they understand that i couldnt imagine how i would possibly be able to comprehend life without any of them around. i cant even explain how in debt i feel to people like kayla who have taught me more about myself and what i am capable of than anyone could in lifetimes. she has also shown me what its like to have true feelings for someone and i can no longer feel bitter or sad towards any situation with her because i gave everything my absolute best shot and was entirely devoted to her from beginning to end, eventhough i had my moments of being a complete dumbass. ill be the first to admit it. ill keep my regrets to myself. and you know, i couldnt ask for better friends or a family to snap me back into shape when the need be there, or share my youthful moments with. i will never be able to forget my wonderful first 18 years of my life right before we all depart for college but just so you all know, i couldnt ask for better friends, lover, or family. and please, take it from me... always make sure you let someone know how important they are to you, cause the next day they could be gone... by choice or because of something crazy like a car accident. in any event, take care of yourselves, this will probably be the last time i actual update this with a genuine entry. not that i do that anymore anyway haha... take it easy, and come to the big party on sunday