FUCK BOYS!!
I hate men.. they always fuck you over. I hate cheaters... especially the guys that don't seem like they're cheaters and then they do and it tears you apart and you think "what did i do wrong? i turned him against me. I think that joe has been my best relationship ever and yes i do want to marry him have his children and sit in a rocking chair with him when i'm seventy years old... i just want to know that he's not cheating on me... i found out that he applied for an online dating service and it may not have even been on purpose but he used my debit card to do it and now i'm overdrawn. (so is he) and i spent like half an hour disputing the matter at the bank only to come home and find out that he really did do it. Life sucks today so i get to wait for him to come home and until he does i get to wonder "is this another relationship that i had back when i was fourteen? Is he really with some cheerleader and is going to lie to me and say that he's never cheated on me" i get to ponder for another hour or two. i think i'll watch a movie... yess.... blood and gore. What will i do if i have to break up with him? I'll go back to my suicide stage and that can't be good cause there's no one to pull me back to reality this time. there's no jace, no mike, and no loving ex-boyfriend that gives me hope telling me he loves me still.. i have no one to love me and i'll have no one to love... and i live to love... i've loved everyone i've been with fullheartedly and this is what happens when you do that.. WARNING SIGNS SHOULD BE GOING OFF RIGHT NOW... I think i'll take some nyquil and get really drunk maybe i'll die of alcohol poisening... grr. movie... i'll watch a movie