Funeral today... fun?
Well, grandpa's funeral is today. I really just don't feel anything today. Which might be better than how everyone else is acting. They act like this wasn't going to happen... It's horrible that he didn't just get run over by a clown bus, but since this is how it is, i'm just happy that his suffering is over. And that's the truth. Or is it? Will i get to the funeral today and freak out when i see his body lying in that casket? Will I cry in front of all the people that haven't ever seen me cry? And will they even cry whether I do or not? It's just the wake today, tomorrow is the funeral. I have prom tonight to, so i have to run around and get my hair and makeup done before i go to the funeral home at 2. I couldn't go to the earlier service cause if i didn't go to school they won't let me go to prom the bastards.
I don't know what i was supposed to do tomorrow, but yeah..
joe made me so mad yesterday. I went to drop my mom off at grandma's and we were all sitting in the kitchen with my aunt uncle grandma and mom. And i said something about i wasn't hungry because we grabbed something to eat before we picked up joe's tux. And then my uncle was like "Oh, prom?" and i was going to lie and say that prom was saturday because i'm gonna have to leave the wake early so that i can be on time for prom... So i said "Yeah saturday" and joe was like no, it's tomorrow. How could you forget? UGH! i didn't forget asshole. I feel so bad about leaving early though. How am i going to have fun and dance and pretend to be happy while eating poorly planned out meals and hanging out with my boyfriend who prolly just wants to go home and play video games or watch tv.
Anywho, i have to call jordan later today. I miss talking to him. It's weird... i haven't felt like this in awhile.
I don't know what i was supposed to do tomorrow, but yeah..
joe made me so mad yesterday. I went to drop my mom off at grandma's and we were all sitting in the kitchen with my aunt uncle grandma and mom. And i said something about i wasn't hungry because we grabbed something to eat before we picked up joe's tux. And then my uncle was like "Oh, prom?" and i was going to lie and say that prom was saturday because i'm gonna have to leave the wake early so that i can be on time for prom... So i said "Yeah saturday" and joe was like no, it's tomorrow. How could you forget? UGH! i didn't forget asshole. I feel so bad about leaving early though. How am i going to have fun and dance and pretend to be happy while eating poorly planned out meals and hanging out with my boyfriend who prolly just wants to go home and play video games or watch tv.
Anywho, i have to call jordan later today. I miss talking to him. It's weird... i haven't felt like this in awhile.