I'm so sorry...

[year_of_cat_fan]

W-what have I done? I can't believe that I just ran away...what kind of idiot am I? How could I do that so someone, especially someone that I consider a friend? I wouldn't blame him if he never speaks to me again...I wouldn't want to speak to me ever again...*sniffs*

*rubs eyes* I should have stayed. I should have said something. I should have...I

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[wanks_over_you]

Tohru...please don't cry.

It wasn't your fault. I'm the one who should be sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you....please forgive me.

[year_of_cat_fan]

...Sorry *sniff* I'll stop *sniff*

There's nothing to forgive, you didn't do anything wrong at all.

It's my fault; I didn't think. I just...no, I won't make an excuse. I messed up, it's my responsibility and I'm sorry.

*sniff* I'm so sorry.

[wanks_over_you]

Please stop apologising, Tohru. Like I said before, you didn't do anything wrong. You didn't mess up.

I'm not mad at you and I don't blame you for anything. You were confused...I shouldn't have done that...it was wrong of me. I don't want you feeling bad...

[year_of_cat_fan]

Okay, sorry, I'll stop saying sorry.

I should have reacted better, you deserve better than that. I should have at least stayed...I wanted to say something but everything got all jumbled up in my head and I couldn't say anything. *sniffs*

I know you don't want to keep hearing me say it; but I'm sorry. *sniffs*

[wanks_over_you]

It's okay...really. I just want you to feel better. I'll understand if you don't want to see me anymore. I won't cause trouble, I'll just leave you alone. After all, if it hadn't been for me things would have been fine between us. I pushed it too far.

I'm sorry, Tohru.

[year_of_cat_fan]

*cires even harder* Why are you even bothering to think about my feelings at a time like this? *rubs at eyes* Please, I forfeited my right to have you care about me when I ran out on you.

I know that I'm being selfish but I don't want you to leave me alone...I still don't know what I do want...but I know that it's definitely not that.

Please don't be sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for. *sniffs*

[wanks_over_you]

Your feelings are important to me.

*smiles* Tohru, I wil never stop caring about you. And you're not being selfish, you're just upset. I'm glad you don't want me to leave you alone.

Well, you have plenty of time to figure things out. I'm not going to rush you into making a decision. I'll always be here if you need me. Take your time...

[year_of_cat_fan]

*fresh tears* You really are too kind, Aster.

*wipes eyes and takes a calming breath* Thank you, it really means a lot to me. I just need to get everything straightened out in my head.

Thank you so much, for understanding...and just for everything...

[wanks_over_you]

That's no problem at all.

I'm the one who doesn't deserve you...

When you're ready - you know where to find me.

Take care in the meantime, Tohru.

((Strikeout is unreadable))

[year_of_cat_fan]

Thank you. hank you so much for understanding Aster. *shaky smile*

You'll be the first to know when I get my thoughts cleared up.

You take care too, I'll talk to you soon.