Update!
Okay, so.... About that last post... Remember how like, several posts back I mentioned that a lot of people at my job got laid off? These were full time staff members whose positions were just no longer needed and thus gotten rid of.
The company recently got a new contract and hired five full time people to handle the job.
I am an on call worker who has been working full time with no benefits or paid time off or sick leave for two and a half years.
Some how... I don't know how this happened or when it happened or why it happened... But I got good at my job. I don't like to brag and I am not one that knows how to handle a compliment well. I'd just as soon prefer to stay in the back and never get noticed than be told I did a good job.
But people noticed and suddenly I'm "THE GO TO GUY". I was selected to help train these five new people, come up with materials, present in a room infront of them and teach them what they need to know.
It has always been apparent to us that our job was always very sketchy because we were on call and if we weren't needed, we would be the first to go. So surviving that down sizing was terrifying. Living pay check to pay check and barely making rent with room for food sucks. A lot. It's a scary process that no one should have to do. No one should have to survive on a $2.99 ten pound bag of potatoes for a month.
Well work has slowed down. No one knows why. We can't understand how work has slowed down as it has. Honestly? My job depends on people getting hurt at work and filing claims to get Workers Compensation. The fact that work has slowed is just... BAFFLING. Have people started being safer? Are they securing their ladders? No longer falling off chairs or getting carpel tunnel? No idea. But what the hell?
We were recently informed that if work didn't pick up, we would be truely "On Call Only Staff". Meaning they would only call us in when they needed. We could go all week without being needed. That... Would not be good money wise. I have also gotten an increasingly bad feeling that my job is about to go away. They assured us no one would be fired or laid off, but they haven't hired another 'oncall' person in a year.
The thing is, for the past year and a half or so, everyone has been asking me why I don't just apply for a full time job. I did have very valid reasons. But recently, we have reformatted our work flow and made it better. My valid reasons are gone... So on Monday, I'm going to talk to my boss and upper boss about becoming a full time staff if they will even let me at this point when a position opens up...
I am terrified. I have... anxiety issues with advancement. With letting people down. With doing a bad job or accidentally pissing people off. I would be required to answer phones and answering phones is enough to give me a mild panic attack at this point.
I know that if I'm trained right, and I'm sure over time I will get used to it and have no issues... But getting there is so hard.
This also means I can't come and go as I want anymore. I can't leave work early or take a week off for conventions or anything. I can't do part time so I can do school... I think at this point... School won't happen for a very very long time. Other people have things to do and they get to do them first.
Also... Have you ever wanted to buy a present for someone just because you wanted to show them that you cared and to make them happy? But then that person makes you feel bad and doesn't give you reason to want to do this nice thing?
There is a well... relativly important date coming up. I feel like I'm the only one that's noticed it. Or cares. Originally I wanted to do something nice. Get a surprise. Yeah... I don't think I'm going to be doing that anymore. I'd rather if the date just passed by without any incident. Sad thing is, if it does, I think I might cry.
The company recently got a new contract and hired five full time people to handle the job.
I am an on call worker who has been working full time with no benefits or paid time off or sick leave for two and a half years.
Some how... I don't know how this happened or when it happened or why it happened... But I got good at my job. I don't like to brag and I am not one that knows how to handle a compliment well. I'd just as soon prefer to stay in the back and never get noticed than be told I did a good job.
But people noticed and suddenly I'm "THE GO TO GUY". I was selected to help train these five new people, come up with materials, present in a room infront of them and teach them what they need to know.
It has always been apparent to us that our job was always very sketchy because we were on call and if we weren't needed, we would be the first to go. So surviving that down sizing was terrifying. Living pay check to pay check and barely making rent with room for food sucks. A lot. It's a scary process that no one should have to do. No one should have to survive on a $2.99 ten pound bag of potatoes for a month.
Well work has slowed down. No one knows why. We can't understand how work has slowed down as it has. Honestly? My job depends on people getting hurt at work and filing claims to get Workers Compensation. The fact that work has slowed is just... BAFFLING. Have people started being safer? Are they securing their ladders? No longer falling off chairs or getting carpel tunnel? No idea. But what the hell?
We were recently informed that if work didn't pick up, we would be truely "On Call Only Staff". Meaning they would only call us in when they needed. We could go all week without being needed. That... Would not be good money wise. I have also gotten an increasingly bad feeling that my job is about to go away. They assured us no one would be fired or laid off, but they haven't hired another 'oncall' person in a year.
The thing is, for the past year and a half or so, everyone has been asking me why I don't just apply for a full time job. I did have very valid reasons. But recently, we have reformatted our work flow and made it better. My valid reasons are gone... So on Monday, I'm going to talk to my boss and upper boss about becoming a full time staff if they will even let me at this point when a position opens up...
I am terrified. I have... anxiety issues with advancement. With letting people down. With doing a bad job or accidentally pissing people off. I would be required to answer phones and answering phones is enough to give me a mild panic attack at this point.
I know that if I'm trained right, and I'm sure over time I will get used to it and have no issues... But getting there is so hard.
This also means I can't come and go as I want anymore. I can't leave work early or take a week off for conventions or anything. I can't do part time so I can do school... I think at this point... School won't happen for a very very long time. Other people have things to do and they get to do them first.
Also... Have you ever wanted to buy a present for someone just because you wanted to show them that you cared and to make them happy? But then that person makes you feel bad and doesn't give you reason to want to do this nice thing?
There is a well... relativly important date coming up. I feel like I'm the only one that's noticed it. Or cares. Originally I wanted to do something nice. Get a surprise. Yeah... I don't think I'm going to be doing that anymore. I'd rather if the date just passed by without any incident. Sad thing is, if it does, I think I might cry.