Computers and Angst
So I got my new computer all set up. I'm very very happy. I click on something and it actually opens right away. There's no time to go for a walk and make tea and a nap anymore. Imagine that! (named it Dok-San so it would run away from the viruses, possibly create a few zombies in retaliation and make me breakfast.)
Accidentally deleted one of my art folders while transferring files from old computer to new... Am very very disgruntled about that as I can't get it back. (Don't know where it went, but it sure as hell wasn't the recycle/trash bin. Stupid 4th dimension.)
Went to Noa's cousin's wedding on the 19th. (She's quite possibly the coolest person in Noa's family. I really really like her and she married a freaking awesome guy.)
It was an awesome wedding and it got Noa and I thinking about when and how we want to get married.
......Noa wants Pat to be our minister. While this alarms me, I am morbidly curious. O.o
So when I called and told my mom I was engaged, she responded with, "I'm not telling your father." At first, I figured it was a joke.
It's no secrete that he doesn't like Noa. And that he doesn't approve of my life.
However, I called my mom to wish her a happy birthday on the 19th (she turned 60). We talked for a while, and mentioned that my cousin was also engaged. She's keeping it a secrete from the rest of our family because she just got out of a bad relationship and he lives in Washington State. So I asked who in our family knew about Noa and I. She told my Aunt, who thinks it is nice. (she's my favorite relative.)
And my Brother... Who I just found out is now dating an 18 year old high school girl. (he is 32.) Her parents are pissed, but what ever floats his boat.
And she still hadn't told my father. And she told me that she had no intention of telling him.
It would seem that all they do when it comes to talking about me is argue.
My dad believes that I am insane and wants nothing to do with it. (and I mean it literally.)
He doesn't call me or email me, but he does ask mom how I'm doing when I email her. She basically said she didn't want to have another thing to fight with him about. If I wanted him to know, then I would tell him.
What ever. I really don't care. I'm just tired of it. If he wants to disown me, he should just do it already.
Oh, and I also found out that my Aunt has lou garretts disease. I'm not close to the woman really, as I could never understand a damn word she said. (she's from South Korea.) But apparently my mom is the one that's dragging her all over creation from doctor to doctor to try and get her treated and is the only one that's helping her. AND...found out that my mom is on the verge of osteoporosis.
So if I seem a bit grumpy lately, I'm just stressed. That's fine. I'll get over it in a few days.
Speaking of stress... I want to get my name changed, but I have many dilemmas with this.
First and most important: I need to collect my life insurance so I have money for school. And I need to do this before my name changes. But apparently it's a bitch to do as the company was bought out years ago and this was opened when I was ten weeks old. Not to mention it's in Texas.
Second: I need to close a bank savings account mom opened for me years ago so once again, I have college money. Same thing. It's in fucking Texas and I need to do it before I change my name. It's a credit union and that's also supposed to be a bit of a bitch to do.
Third: Work. I REALLY don't want to have to explain to everyone why I'm changing my name. Nate, a really cool guy I work with figured it out a bit ago and he's cool about it. But that's one crazy guy. (Everyone at work thinks I'm a girl. Wonderful.) Oh, and the name doesn't help. I went by Matt at school and they still thought I was a girl.
Noa says we aren't getting married till this happens. Soooo.... *sigh*
Money is also starting to worry me a little. Oh, I definitely have more money than Noa, but I'm not managing it well like I should. Especially since I'm cutting my mom off financially and am no longer accepting money from her. (she's in a very bad financial situation right now.) So I'm paying for college myself. And I owe Jacki money for the computer.
I am also now ready for my chest surgery. The Binder. She does nothing. (Rami. You and I know the same pain.) I would double it up and REALLY bind down, but I enjoy breathing. Not to mention my work requires that I be able to bend and breathe. Cosplay is one thing. Every day life is another. So...fuck.
That's enough angst for a while. Just needed to get it off my shoulders.
I'm so ready for another vacation. It doesn't even have to be out of state. I just want to go somewhere. Even if it's just walking around Seattle for a day. Not going anywhere, just wandering around. Maybe it's just that time of the year where the weather starts to cool down and the rain comes. And I love walking in the rain. But I am restless as all hell.
Anyways... I'm tired and have work tomorrow. Last day of school Thursday though! It'll be nice to actually have days off on my days off again.
Accidentally deleted one of my art folders while transferring files from old computer to new... Am very very disgruntled about that as I can't get it back. (Don't know where it went, but it sure as hell wasn't the recycle/trash bin. Stupid 4th dimension.)
Went to Noa's cousin's wedding on the 19th. (She's quite possibly the coolest person in Noa's family. I really really like her and she married a freaking awesome guy.)
It was an awesome wedding and it got Noa and I thinking about when and how we want to get married.
......Noa wants Pat to be our minister. While this alarms me, I am morbidly curious. O.o
So when I called and told my mom I was engaged, she responded with, "I'm not telling your father." At first, I figured it was a joke.
It's no secrete that he doesn't like Noa. And that he doesn't approve of my life.
However, I called my mom to wish her a happy birthday on the 19th (she turned 60). We talked for a while, and mentioned that my cousin was also engaged. She's keeping it a secrete from the rest of our family because she just got out of a bad relationship and he lives in Washington State. So I asked who in our family knew about Noa and I. She told my Aunt, who thinks it is nice. (she's my favorite relative.)
And my Brother... Who I just found out is now dating an 18 year old high school girl. (he is 32.) Her parents are pissed, but what ever floats his boat.
And she still hadn't told my father. And she told me that she had no intention of telling him.
It would seem that all they do when it comes to talking about me is argue.
My dad believes that I am insane and wants nothing to do with it. (and I mean it literally.)
He doesn't call me or email me, but he does ask mom how I'm doing when I email her. She basically said she didn't want to have another thing to fight with him about. If I wanted him to know, then I would tell him.
What ever. I really don't care. I'm just tired of it. If he wants to disown me, he should just do it already.
Oh, and I also found out that my Aunt has lou garretts disease. I'm not close to the woman really, as I could never understand a damn word she said. (she's from South Korea.) But apparently my mom is the one that's dragging her all over creation from doctor to doctor to try and get her treated and is the only one that's helping her. AND...found out that my mom is on the verge of osteoporosis.
So if I seem a bit grumpy lately, I'm just stressed. That's fine. I'll get over it in a few days.
Speaking of stress... I want to get my name changed, but I have many dilemmas with this.
First and most important: I need to collect my life insurance so I have money for school. And I need to do this before my name changes. But apparently it's a bitch to do as the company was bought out years ago and this was opened when I was ten weeks old. Not to mention it's in Texas.
Second: I need to close a bank savings account mom opened for me years ago so once again, I have college money. Same thing. It's in fucking Texas and I need to do it before I change my name. It's a credit union and that's also supposed to be a bit of a bitch to do.
Third: Work. I REALLY don't want to have to explain to everyone why I'm changing my name. Nate, a really cool guy I work with figured it out a bit ago and he's cool about it. But that's one crazy guy. (Everyone at work thinks I'm a girl. Wonderful.) Oh, and the name doesn't help. I went by Matt at school and they still thought I was a girl.
Noa says we aren't getting married till this happens. Soooo.... *sigh*
Money is also starting to worry me a little. Oh, I definitely have more money than Noa, but I'm not managing it well like I should. Especially since I'm cutting my mom off financially and am no longer accepting money from her. (she's in a very bad financial situation right now.) So I'm paying for college myself. And I owe Jacki money for the computer.
I am also now ready for my chest surgery. The Binder. She does nothing. (Rami. You and I know the same pain.) I would double it up and REALLY bind down, but I enjoy breathing. Not to mention my work requires that I be able to bend and breathe. Cosplay is one thing. Every day life is another. So...fuck.
That's enough angst for a while. Just needed to get it off my shoulders.
I'm so ready for another vacation. It doesn't even have to be out of state. I just want to go somewhere. Even if it's just walking around Seattle for a day. Not going anywhere, just wandering around. Maybe it's just that time of the year where the weather starts to cool down and the rain comes. And I love walking in the rain. But I am restless as all hell.
Anyways... I'm tired and have work tomorrow. Last day of school Thursday though! It'll be nice to actually have days off on my days off again.