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[yeahshakira]

alright, time for an update....yeah, I'm really lonely.....I don't expect Matthew to be here constantly, but I guess its when he is gone for extended periods of time, that is when I get upset. I miss my Shiina Rinngo layout...stupid dark hosts. I know they only host shit for porn sites, but hey, it worked for a while, right? And my layout is on my

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[anonymous]

hi vince. don't let feeling lonely get you too down. believe it or not, I felt really lonely at CMU during my freshman year too. everyone always talks about how exciting and cool it is to finally be at college and on your own, but really, you cant just switch gears without feeling some weird transitions. just remember you're not alone, and above all, just remind yourself that it takes TIME. even if you think you're all adjusted and everything is becoming normal, really, it takes TIME to develop new frienships and new routines.. it even takes the body 30 days just to adapt to a new physical environment..

so over the next few months, if you find yourself alone in your room feeling kind of low, just try to remember that it wont be like that forever.. as time goes on you'll develop stronger relationships with people you know now, and even people you have yet to met. I was convinced I had seen everything pittsburgh had to offer and I wanted to transfer, but I didnt even meet everyone that I am friends with now until april of my freshman year!

and dont worry too much about matt.. he is branching out and doing new things just like you are, and you will both experience growing pains and the like.. try to enjoy your solid friendship but dont let his actions affect you too much- they are a temporary reaction to a new situation, whether you guys realize it or not. maybe by the end of the year, it will be like high school, or maybe by then you and matt won't hang out much at all.. evolution of relationships is part of growing up..

so all I wanted to say was, just try to roll with the punches and when you do have those times where you get to thinking about being lonely, and about past friendships or how life was like back in norfolk, just keep telling yourself that it will get better with TIME and you cant make it go any faster, so have patience.

also, tampons dont burn because they are bleached with a chemical (to make them sanitary and hostile to bacteria) that happens to make them non-flammable.

-Jen

[yeahshakira]

Jen, yeah, thanks for the support. I know how tempermental i can be, and I feel a lot better. I really love the people here, especially the exchange students. Mariko and Yuta, both students from Japan, they are really nice and both cheered me up. Yeah, and doing my Japanese really helps. It keeps my mind off things and I'm happy doing Japanese. I just find myself studying for long periods of time after I have completed my share of the night's work. Yeah, I am looking into the exchange programs, possibly either next year or junior year. I want to go for a year. Yeah, anyways, I will talk to you soon, ciao!

ps- sorry about your fish. He is in a better place now!

It'll be ok

[anonymous]

Hey Vince, I am sorry to hear you are lonely. I had no idea Matthew spent the night in Orchard Hill.... I actually thought he hated climbing it so I don't usually ask him to stay with me to visit. I think sometime in the near future just you and I should hang out b/c you really only see me when I am with Matthew and I don't think it allows our friendship to grow that much. You are an awesome friend and I don't like seeing you get hurt by anything or anyone. I'll be around this entire weekend, so please feel free to get in touch with me to talk or hang around the dorm if you feel the need to express your feelings. I hope you feel a lot better. -Brittany