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Sep 11, 2011 22:32

Hello? Hello?

[The video switches on by accident to reveal a young man with mussed hair and a blood-red (or bloody?) t-shirt, prodding urgently at the communicator controls. His eyes are wide and red-rimmed, like he's been crying.]Hey, yo, what is this? What'd you bring me here for? If you're gonna kill me, man, just-- just do it, already, don't ( Read more... )

intro, warden claire, english alice is english, mr. pink is a douche, jesse needs a damn hug, wtf costigan, french armand is french, vila mcchatterson, jim asks too many questions

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[Awhile later] lost_undercover September 12 2011, 02:31:34 UTC

You alright? People fill you in?

yeahscience September 12 2011, 02:35:45 UTC

[Jesse's calm, at this point. Or as calm as he can get right now, anyway. He's wandering around, looking sort of twitchy and aimless, and he startles a little when the communicator starts talking at him again.]

Uh... yeah. Yeah, I'm cool. Or... whatever. I get the picture.

Private- lost_undercover September 12 2011, 02:48:14 UTC

You need anything?

It's Costigan, by the way. Bill Costigan.

Private yeahscience September 12 2011, 02:57:10 UTC

Jesse.

Um. A lighter, I guess, if you got one. Smokes.

[He glances around, looks as if he wants to say something else... but stops himself. Bill might recognize the signs, though; Jesse's jittery, flushed, his jaw tight.]

Private lost_undercover September 12 2011, 03:41:14 UTC

Sure. I can get you a lighter and smokes. Thick shit, from the 1940's, I got from a friend. That work for you? I can request something else if you want. [A pause.] Don't be an asshole and use the lighter to start any fucking fires.

[He considers saying something else, but figures they can start a little slower.]

Private yeahscience September 12 2011, 04:06:03 UTC

Seriously? [Jesse's surprise is totally open.] That's real big of you, man.

And nah, I don't mess around with that arson pyromania shit. I just need... [Crystal. Crystal. Crystal.] ...I could use a cigarette, you know?

Private lost_undercover September 12 2011, 04:38:53 UTC

Sure. I know what it's like. [Dual meaning, Jesse.]

I can get you a pack of smokes, but that might be all you get here for awhile. I'd recommend going to the infirmary for awhile if you're not feeling great.

Private yeahscience September 12 2011, 04:44:35 UTC

Everyone here's been real nice, I guess, with all the talk therapy bullshit, but no one's actually been willing to hook a brother up. [With cigarettes, is obviously what he means.] I've got, like, four, and no light.

What's... what's the deal with this infirmary people keep mentioning? I don't need no doctor, I just... [He rubs a hand over his forehead.] I'm fine.

Private lost_undercover September 12 2011, 04:54:37 UTC

They like to think they're helping people.

[Sigh.] I know what you need, but you aren't getting it here.. and if you have to go through the shit, it's easier to do it on painkillers and fluids so you don't have to fuckin' die too.

Private yeahscience September 12 2011, 05:35:34 UTC

Yeah. I had a guy like that back in rehab, the first time. [Because, okay, he's not totally stupid, it's obvious Costigan here knows what's up.] Like talking about it actually fixes shit.

Shit, man. What kind of prison has no way to import product? [Jesse sighs, scrubbing both hands over his face this time.] Nah, it's fine. I stopped before, I can do it again.

Private lost_undercover September 12 2011, 22:55:46 UTC

Sometimes it helps, but it really doesn't do much.

One that's floating on space. [It's like a bad joke. :C] If you want to stay in your room and need someone to bring you food and whatever else... [He trails off.]

Private yeahscience September 13 2011, 01:12:15 UTC

Didn't work the first time. Don't seem like it's gonna work the second, neither.

Like I said, I'm fine. I can handle it. It's not like I got a choice, right? That's what you're saying?

Private lost_undercover September 13 2011, 02:11:23 UTC

Depends on the person.

You have a choice about how you handle it.

Private yeahscience September 13 2011, 02:41:13 UTC

Seems like bullshit to me, man. You do a shitty thing, you change someone's life. Maybe... maybe something worse... [He glances away briefly.] Talking it out ain't gonna, like, change that. It just seems like fucking denial to say it will.

Yeah? What choice is that?

Private lost_undercover September 13 2011, 02:51:48 UTC

It might not change it, but it could make something worthwhile. I mean, if someone else sacrificed something for you..

Cold turkey alone in your room or tapering off with a doc.

SOMEONE HIT A NERVE. yeahscience September 13 2011, 03:16:57 UTC

Worthwhile?? [For the first time, Jesse's looking animated, a light in his eyes -- an angry, frantic light.] No. No, fuck that. You know this guy, this rehab guy I mentioned, right? You know what he did? He killed his kid. He got high and he ran his baby over with a fucking car.

And now he acts like because he figured out a way to live with himself after, like, he managed to talk it through, so now it's okay. Like even if he does something good every day for the rest of his life, it's gonna make it okay that he killed this kid. Like-- like even if maybe he'd even had a reason for doing it--

[He breaks off, suddenly, breathing hard, eyes tearing up again. He wipes at them furiously.] Like-- like even a good reason... a worthwhile reason...

He still... killed that fucking baby, okay, man. Every day, he's still gonna remember that baby's dead because of him. His choices. Every day, like... no matter what else he does, in, like, his life, he still killed that fucking baby.

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