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I don't think I've ever been so discouraged by life in general as I am right now.
I used to think people that got this depressed and down on themselves were just aching for attention. Maybe they were, I dunno.
I just wish there were an easy decision for once in my life. I'm hating school right now. I can't schedule classes for next semester because I haven't paid for THIS semester yet because my LOAN never came in. I'm STILL waiting on it. At this point, I'm not even sure if I want it anymore, because I'm seriously considering just dropping out and finding a job. The job I've got doesn't pay me enough to get by, AND they just cut my hours in half.
Combine that with a few seriously shitty social situations, and I want to drive a nail through my hand to get my mind off things.
I've never crumpled under pressure like this, but then again, I've never really dealt with this kind of pressure.
I used to think people that got this depressed and down on themselves were just aching for attention. Maybe they were, I dunno.
I just wish there were an easy decision for once in my life. I'm hating school right now. I can't schedule classes for next semester because I haven't paid for THIS semester yet because my LOAN never came in. I'm STILL waiting on it. At this point, I'm not even sure if I want it anymore, because I'm seriously considering just dropping out and finding a job. The job I've got doesn't pay me enough to get by, AND they just cut my hours in half.
Combine that with a few seriously shitty social situations, and I want to drive a nail through my hand to get my mind off things.
I've never crumpled under pressure like this, but then again, I've never really dealt with this kind of pressure.