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This week has been hell.
I have been working my ass off, surely it'll show in my next pay check. I am more then ready to get my own place now. Not financially, but emotionally. Living here is too much stress for my health. My family is the craziest I've ever seen in my almost 20 years on this earth. Sometimes it gets to the point where I hate them. It's weird, I don't even think they realize when they're being emotionally abusive. I want to move somewhere where I know absolutely nobody. Like New York City or something like that. All anyone ever does is bitch and bitch and bitch. And I'm tired of hearing it. But I guess that's what I'm doing right now. I'm so sick of people judging other people. I truly believe that you should not judge a person unless you've walked a mile in their shoes. Everyone goes through different tragidies in their lives which come out in their actions. It's hard for me to look at my cousin's when they have both of their parents, or at least one. I wish my mom was here, if she were here, my family would not be the way it is right now. And I miss my dad. My dad just got out of prison. You know they say that you eventually turn into your parents. I think that might be true. I am definitely my mother's child. Although my dad isn't my biological father I'm surely turnning into him as well. I want to be like my parents but better.
It isn't easy going through life without parents. It's really hard. I think all of you who still have your parents should always let them know that you do love them, even if you do get angry at them, because you never know when they might not be there anymore.
They say that it gets easier, but I think that now that I'm older it's actually getting harder. I find myself getting upset about it more and more.
Sometimes when I think about it, it hits me all over again.
I don't know, I'm just rambling. Don't mind me.