this one is for michael
reading back on my past entries leaves me feeling truely happy inside. it's very rare that one can think about their past and reflect on it, not regret. i've lived a crazy life, full of mistakes. i've made mistakes i promised myself would never happen. i've hurt people. i've hurt myself. i lived years of my life addicted to a substance. i let something control me. i let others control me. but still.... today.... none of that matters.
today i walk with my head held high. i smile and i mean it. i cannot express how right, how whole, i feel inside. but from now on, im going to use this journal to try and give others a glimpse as to who i really am. no bullshit.
i'm starting on a clean slate.
my name is jessica dawn roberts. im twenty-one years old. i live in chandler, arizona.
thats the sentence i always use to describe myself.
but im going to use this journal to give that sentence more depth.
i've found my perfect someone. he's helped me change. he's helped me grow. he's given me the strength i've been looking for my entire life. as i read past entries i giggled at the love i thought i was in. because this one i have now, is so much stronger, so pure, so real. he still turns my stomach inside out. he still gives me goosebumps when we kiss. every time we touch i still get the smile i got the first time. every day im living my dream.
and as much as i owe it to christopher neil haines, i owe it to myself.
i've done a lot of work. and like usual, when i work hard i see results.
these results are so awesome.
....
i write to remember
....
-his- jess
today i walk with my head held high. i smile and i mean it. i cannot express how right, how whole, i feel inside. but from now on, im going to use this journal to try and give others a glimpse as to who i really am. no bullshit.
i'm starting on a clean slate.
my name is jessica dawn roberts. im twenty-one years old. i live in chandler, arizona.
thats the sentence i always use to describe myself.
but im going to use this journal to give that sentence more depth.
i've found my perfect someone. he's helped me change. he's helped me grow. he's given me the strength i've been looking for my entire life. as i read past entries i giggled at the love i thought i was in. because this one i have now, is so much stronger, so pure, so real. he still turns my stomach inside out. he still gives me goosebumps when we kiss. every time we touch i still get the smile i got the first time. every day im living my dream.
and as much as i owe it to christopher neil haines, i owe it to myself.
i've done a lot of work. and like usual, when i work hard i see results.
these results are so awesome.
....
i write to remember
....
-his- jess