broken.
i guess i just write in this thing whenever i have really good days, or really bad days. today was horrible. i found out the worst things. ive never cried this much in my life, ever. theres nothing that can make me feel better now. im so lost, i cant find myself anymore. i know whats wrong with me this time. nobodys ever hurt me this much before.. never this bad. rosy.. you were exactly right. if i listened to what you said, i wouldnt have cried so much today. he did that exact same thing. i mean if you dont like someone, break up with them atleast before you do stuff with other people, five other people. and then admit it to them, dont tell other people to tell them. how could you just disregard someones feelings like that. like the day before he left everything was fine. and then when he got back, "i miss you". yeah maybe you missed me. i hate how i love you means nothing anymore. and most of all, i hate myself.