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my decision (its too damn early for me)
i had this great thing i had writtne down i likd it it got erased. i never meant to hurt you i mean this its just i cant keep going on like this hurting you and then you hurting me. i cant have that anymore. i cant cry anymore i cant do much anymore. ive comed to realize i have ALOT to learn. i couldnt sleep last night just thinking i had made the wrong decision but you know what theyre are NO bad decisons just learning experiences and i expect to learn from this and i will learn from this even if it is for the bad or good. i know your probably mad at me or sad and im honestly sorry. i will always be here for you and you know i will. your mom will hate me again and thats something i have to take and you will never trust me again but i will learn from this. and as bad as this may seem i think i ve cried enough for one person to last me a life time. BUT please believe me when anything comes up that i will be there for you. like i always have. like i always will. i just dont think i can take myself anymore and the things ive put you through and the things youve put me through we've gone through hell and back togther but i cant do that anymore my hearts dead right now. ive cried enough. im done for now. i dont think ive ever been more depressed than right now.
i wrote that on myspace
i swear to god i didnt do anything bad the only thing i know im at fault for is for being a terrible girlfriend but i'll learn from this i will. i hope i didnt make the wrong choice i really mean this but whenever you need me just tell me i'll help you but other than that i cant let myself cry, hurt or anything for anyone anymore. it has NOTHING to do with another guy which i what i think your thinking. it has to do with me and all the pain both of us have been involved in. and im SORRY. but i cant go back now. i'll pick up my own pieces and somehow make myself happy. my heart hurts alot. i really thik at my age im on the verge of having a heart attack soon. im done for now.
i had this great thing i had writtne down i likd it it got erased. i never meant to hurt you i mean this its just i cant keep going on like this hurting you and then you hurting me. i cant have that anymore. i cant cry anymore i cant do much anymore. ive comed to realize i have ALOT to learn. i couldnt sleep last night just thinking i had made the wrong decision but you know what theyre are NO bad decisons just learning experiences and i expect to learn from this and i will learn from this even if it is for the bad or good. i know your probably mad at me or sad and im honestly sorry. i will always be here for you and you know i will. your mom will hate me again and thats something i have to take and you will never trust me again but i will learn from this. and as bad as this may seem i think i ve cried enough for one person to last me a life time. BUT please believe me when anything comes up that i will be there for you. like i always have. like i always will. i just dont think i can take myself anymore and the things ive put you through and the things youve put me through we've gone through hell and back togther but i cant do that anymore my hearts dead right now. ive cried enough. im done for now. i dont think ive ever been more depressed than right now.
i wrote that on myspace
i swear to god i didnt do anything bad the only thing i know im at fault for is for being a terrible girlfriend but i'll learn from this i will. i hope i didnt make the wrong choice i really mean this but whenever you need me just tell me i'll help you but other than that i cant let myself cry, hurt or anything for anyone anymore. it has NOTHING to do with another guy which i what i think your thinking. it has to do with me and all the pain both of us have been involved in. and im SORRY. but i cant go back now. i'll pick up my own pieces and somehow make myself happy. my heart hurts alot. i really thik at my age im on the verge of having a heart attack soon. im done for now.