I never knew
I never knew how jealous you could be of someone you have never met
I never knew a feeling could last so long and never EVER go away
I never knew how badly I have wanted this
I never knew how much you could want something that you could never have
I never knew you could be so close yet so far
It sucks when you have liked someone since you were about 4 feet tall (I skipped the being short phase) and never ever have that feeling fade, always have that person in the back of your mind and always thinking what if?? What if I had never changed schools? what if we stayed best friends? What if the universe didnt keep us apart? What if he missed me as much as I miss him? What if I wouldnt have been so scared that night and stuck around??
You can ask all the questions you want, it still doesnt help you find an answer... it still doesnt change the fact he has a beautiful girlfriend that he treats like a princess... it still doesnt change the fact that I will never get the chance to have what I have wanted all along
I just sucks cuz I feel like I will never know if we would have been good together... he will always be my "what if"