so confused
I really dont know what I am thinking right now, and I really wish I could figure out wtf is going on with my head...I think I figure it all out and then you go confusing me all over again... I think I get closer to figureing it out again and then I find myself smelling your familiar scent and just smileing thinking of you... I DONT KNOW WHY ...You aren't the first one I call You aren't the first one I think of at all.. but after spending time with you I have all these mixed emotions.. I dont know if I like you, I dont know if I like the attention or i just dont know.... I feel uncomfortable but at the sametime comforted... IDK the quesiton you asked last night through me off gaurd.. I was thinking about that 2 seconds b4 you brought it up and It scared me... I have been scared of that for awhile now... scared of that for myself and hurting others with it... I still dont know what to make of all of this... one moment I know the next I have no clue.. I wish someone could just tell me the outcome of this... I dont see it going anywhere which makes me feel bad... I talk to my friends about it and the person I look to most for help said basically exactly what I was afraid of saying, how i truely felt about the situation... but when I expalined it to you you didnt seem to care, it didnt even phase you.. all you were concerned about was who I was thinking about while I was kissing you.....which is why I feel like a complete idiot but again I told you I was confused, I put it all out there in the open... I dontknow how I am suppose to feel about this but I feel like a horrible person but on the other hand I kinda dont know how to know if you are really true about how you feel as well... I just dont know what to do..........................
I just want the answers or the right thing to say... the ability to stand up for myself and the ability not to give in