Mastering Mindfulness
Yesterday was a day that seemed as long as it was everything else. It started off very earlier so that i may get to work, after which i came home hoping for some company during my slovenliness with a house to myself. I ended up sleeping a significant amount, steve came over for a bit, and then i watched the United States of Leland. Once again, i was moved more than i thought a film possibly could move. As i sit now, trying to write my paper about the film, i struggle to even summarize the plot, as every small espect of it seems vitally important.
My mind and heart couldnt decide whether they were rejuvinated or broken once more. "Sometimes the most important stuff goes away- goes away so bad it's like it was never there to begin with." This and other lines got to me so very much. Today i had work until 8:30 and i nearly shot myself about a thousand times.
I can't decide what i want in life. I miss alot of people, again.
The white tornado has been oddly small of late. This is good, i think.
I want to do something different and new. But i won't. Because i am too busy and too lazy.
My mind and heart couldnt decide whether they were rejuvinated or broken once more. "Sometimes the most important stuff goes away- goes away so bad it's like it was never there to begin with." This and other lines got to me so very much. Today i had work until 8:30 and i nearly shot myself about a thousand times.
I can't decide what i want in life. I miss alot of people, again.
The white tornado has been oddly small of late. This is good, i think.
I want to do something different and new. But i won't. Because i am too busy and too lazy.