Constant Contact
The past week I have lost touch with my HP. Like a childhood friend, I neglected Him/Her when things were "too busy." Like a good childhood friend, He never left, only waited for me.
I had a rough time maintaining my sobriety during the wedding events. Being around people drinking has not bothered me much in recovery but my spirtuallity must have been weak because I was very tempted. I had been so caught up in the going-ons that I did not follow my daily schedule of contact with my HP. The wedding was centered around wine and the vinyards. The wedding included a ceremony mixing white and red wines symbolizing the mixing of the two lives into one. The vintner even bottled a batch of the freshly picked wine for a toast after the ceremony. I nearly took a glass instead of water to do the toast. My stupid brain assured me that it was only a sip to celebrate my sister's wedding. I guess I was having too good a time and forgetting the constant battle for sobriety. Wine was not even my drink of choice...not that I was very discriminate.
I did not drink and I am still clean and sober thanks to my HP. I went to an heralist the other night to buy some aromatherapy and candles to relax while I watched the newlyweds' house. The tension I had been feeling lifted when I caught up with my HP. I had not been maintaining that contact that keeps me sane and sober. Next time I get so busy, I will be sure to take the time to keep in touch with that special one that always makes time for me!
I had a rough time maintaining my sobriety during the wedding events. Being around people drinking has not bothered me much in recovery but my spirtuallity must have been weak because I was very tempted. I had been so caught up in the going-ons that I did not follow my daily schedule of contact with my HP. The wedding was centered around wine and the vinyards. The wedding included a ceremony mixing white and red wines symbolizing the mixing of the two lives into one. The vintner even bottled a batch of the freshly picked wine for a toast after the ceremony. I nearly took a glass instead of water to do the toast. My stupid brain assured me that it was only a sip to celebrate my sister's wedding. I guess I was having too good a time and forgetting the constant battle for sobriety. Wine was not even my drink of choice...not that I was very discriminate.
I did not drink and I am still clean and sober thanks to my HP. I went to an heralist the other night to buy some aromatherapy and candles to relax while I watched the newlyweds' house. The tension I had been feeling lifted when I caught up with my HP. I had not been maintaining that contact that keeps me sane and sober. Next time I get so busy, I will be sure to take the time to keep in touch with that special one that always makes time for me!