Warning Sign
Warning Sign
Current mood: gloomy
Coldplay
Warning Sign
by Unknown
A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realized
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in
I’ve gotta tell you what a state I’m in
I’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
I started looking for a warning sign
When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you, so
A warning sign
You came back to haunt me and I realized
That you were an island and I passed you by
And you were an island to discover
Come on in
I’ve gotta tell you what a state I’m in
I’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign
When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so
And I’m tired I should not have let you go
Ooooooooooooooooo
So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
This started playing last night while jerry sean and i were driving and i just started to cry, all i could hear in the lyrics were..."and the truth is.... i miss you, yeah the truth is that i miss you so" and instantly my sister came to mind and the kind of relationship we had before she went into rehab..... today i had a brake down at school, i just started to cry and couldn't stop, i went straight to the councalers and she and the drug and alocohol rehab councaler both told me that i need to go to an alanon meeting. i KNOW that i need to go but i don't want to, i don't want to have to tell everyone how i feel and believe that they feel the same way, i don't want people to tell me how to live my life or how i could improve it by doing things differently. i don't want to admit that i need help and that i can no longer carry all of this stress on my own. i've always said i was sooooo strong and that i was independant, that i don't need anyone else because i can do it all by myself, but the truth is that i can't! its soooo hard to finally realize that you have no control over any of it, its hard to just sit back and let things happen. there are sooo many things that i have to work out in my life right now, i don't know what to start with, and having to keep my grades up along with all this stress is hard because i go to class, but i don't care about anything that they are telling me, i have so may other things on my mind...sometimes i wonder how anyone could want to be around me because i feel like i am soooo negitive all the time, i don't mean to be, i want to be happy and positive, but i guess its not that easy. well tonight is my first alanon meeting and i don't want to go but i think that if i don't, i will end up driving myself insane trying to carry the world on my sholders with no help. wish me luck
Heather
Current mood: gloomy
Coldplay
Warning Sign
by Unknown
A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realized
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in
I’ve gotta tell you what a state I’m in
I’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
I started looking for a warning sign
When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you, so
A warning sign
You came back to haunt me and I realized
That you were an island and I passed you by
And you were an island to discover
Come on in
I’ve gotta tell you what a state I’m in
I’ve gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign
When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so
And I’m tired I should not have let you go
Ooooooooooooooooo
So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
This started playing last night while jerry sean and i were driving and i just started to cry, all i could hear in the lyrics were..."and the truth is.... i miss you, yeah the truth is that i miss you so" and instantly my sister came to mind and the kind of relationship we had before she went into rehab..... today i had a brake down at school, i just started to cry and couldn't stop, i went straight to the councalers and she and the drug and alocohol rehab councaler both told me that i need to go to an alanon meeting. i KNOW that i need to go but i don't want to, i don't want to have to tell everyone how i feel and believe that they feel the same way, i don't want people to tell me how to live my life or how i could improve it by doing things differently. i don't want to admit that i need help and that i can no longer carry all of this stress on my own. i've always said i was sooooo strong and that i was independant, that i don't need anyone else because i can do it all by myself, but the truth is that i can't! its soooo hard to finally realize that you have no control over any of it, its hard to just sit back and let things happen. there are sooo many things that i have to work out in my life right now, i don't know what to start with, and having to keep my grades up along with all this stress is hard because i go to class, but i don't care about anything that they are telling me, i have so may other things on my mind...sometimes i wonder how anyone could want to be around me because i feel like i am soooo negitive all the time, i don't mean to be, i want to be happy and positive, but i guess its not that easy. well tonight is my first alanon meeting and i don't want to go but i think that if i don't, i will end up driving myself insane trying to carry the world on my sholders with no help. wish me luck
Heather