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Why is it, that in my final year of highschool, which is supposed to be the best and funnest (not
a word) and whatever, it's not? In fact, its kinda crappy.
My friends are so aloof. T is all over the place hanging out with backstabbing bitches and going
to jams. I think thats stupid as hell but whatever its her own perogative. I don't even really
care too much for her anymore to tell you the truth. She's being a fucking bitch lately omg.
J is cool he's the only one like me. R is meh. P is meh. annoying but meh. everyone else except
the tall one is annoying.
Everyone is like fucking around and J and I are the only one actually doing all our work. how
can i afford to go to a jam in grade 12? i have too much to do. omg. all these people having
fun around me and i cant have fun, wtf, its ALWAYS ALWAYS like that.
is that the life of a scientist? everyone having fun except you? stuck doing work while
everyone can party? its going to be like this forever. CAN I HANDLE IT? but i have to.
these people are driving me nuts. they are of a different cloth than I. i can't handle them.
my school is like a zoo. they herd us to different classes. it's disgustingly overcrowded. the
school system is overcrowded. i cant breathe in there.
i promised myself not to vandalize the school anymore. that kinda fell flat. all i remind myself
is this:
popularity means SHIT next year. SHIT.
who the fuck cares if you were popular in highschool? no fucking one. NO ONE. you are there
to work in class. THANK GOD. i cant wait to have LECTURES with intelligent people and professors
not these hacks (my teachers this year are actually not that bad, good people) and fucking
dumbasses my classes seem to REEK of.
however, i've realized I wasted this summer, "wasted" by not reviewing. I'm behind in some of
my classes because i havent' reviewed or had time to review stuff or whatever. i need to do some
revision. hmm. i already dicked up a quiz. cant do that again. NO.
got competition now, someone i gotta beat. makes me feisty for school. must beat. its good
to have a pseudo-enemy you have to beat in school, makes you try harder.
anyway, is my whole school year going to be like this? an endless parade of exec meetings, sham
talking with "friends", working, studying. laughs are few and far between. i see jow so
infrequently. not as much as i'd like, thats for sure.
i gotta keep focussed. im not competeting with my school i'm competing with all those intelligent students out there, in the whole land, coming to MY future university. interesting, scary thought.
don't know what i'm going to do if i don't get into health sciences.
just gotta keep focussed on the things that matter. when the year becomes easier, oh trust me, it would and will be worth it, its just so hard to see that far yet so near into the future.
so disatisfied with school and my friends. i just dont want to be here anymore.
and thus
i must study.
-v.
a word) and whatever, it's not? In fact, its kinda crappy.
My friends are so aloof. T is all over the place hanging out with backstabbing bitches and going
to jams. I think thats stupid as hell but whatever its her own perogative. I don't even really
care too much for her anymore to tell you the truth. She's being a fucking bitch lately omg.
J is cool he's the only one like me. R is meh. P is meh. annoying but meh. everyone else except
the tall one is annoying.
Everyone is like fucking around and J and I are the only one actually doing all our work. how
can i afford to go to a jam in grade 12? i have too much to do. omg. all these people having
fun around me and i cant have fun, wtf, its ALWAYS ALWAYS like that.
is that the life of a scientist? everyone having fun except you? stuck doing work while
everyone can party? its going to be like this forever. CAN I HANDLE IT? but i have to.
these people are driving me nuts. they are of a different cloth than I. i can't handle them.
my school is like a zoo. they herd us to different classes. it's disgustingly overcrowded. the
school system is overcrowded. i cant breathe in there.
i promised myself not to vandalize the school anymore. that kinda fell flat. all i remind myself
is this:
popularity means SHIT next year. SHIT.
who the fuck cares if you were popular in highschool? no fucking one. NO ONE. you are there
to work in class. THANK GOD. i cant wait to have LECTURES with intelligent people and professors
not these hacks (my teachers this year are actually not that bad, good people) and fucking
dumbasses my classes seem to REEK of.
however, i've realized I wasted this summer, "wasted" by not reviewing. I'm behind in some of
my classes because i havent' reviewed or had time to review stuff or whatever. i need to do some
revision. hmm. i already dicked up a quiz. cant do that again. NO.
got competition now, someone i gotta beat. makes me feisty for school. must beat. its good
to have a pseudo-enemy you have to beat in school, makes you try harder.
anyway, is my whole school year going to be like this? an endless parade of exec meetings, sham
talking with "friends", working, studying. laughs are few and far between. i see jow so
infrequently. not as much as i'd like, thats for sure.
i gotta keep focussed. im not competeting with my school i'm competing with all those intelligent students out there, in the whole land, coming to MY future university. interesting, scary thought.
don't know what i'm going to do if i don't get into health sciences.
just gotta keep focussed on the things that matter. when the year becomes easier, oh trust me, it would and will be worth it, its just so hard to see that far yet so near into the future.
so disatisfied with school and my friends. i just dont want to be here anymore.
and thus
i must study.
-v.