Failed...........again.
I went for my permit today and failed by 4 questions!! 4!!!!! I don't know. Maybe I'm not supposed to drive. I want to be able to drive by Summer time, but the way Im going, it will be next christmas...I have to wait months after I get my permit to drive on my own.
Ok next subject....Tomorrow I'm going to work at 11 then going to the mall with Jenn and maybe Missy after 6..I want to look for a pair of red shoes for when we go to the rainforest cafe. I found a pair that I fell in love with at Payless and I pray to God they still have them im my size. They would really match my red shirt that I bought the other day...That was the most expensive shirt I own. It was $34. A little expensive, but I really liked it,lol.
Well, I seem to only update on the 6th lol..It's weird. I don't plan it that way, but it happens....
So today is 2 months for my mom. Its going really fast. I think it's better that way. I was watching boy meets world lastnight and they were talking about Shawns dad who died, and he was like " The person is never really gone, because they are always in your memory"...And thats the truth..Funny how it takes a show to make me realize that, but everything is going to be ok. I have my family and my friends...I mean yeah, I miss my mom more than anything, but sometimes I think she wanted us to live more and she knows I'd give up anything for her and I don't think she wanted me to do that anymore.
I know it's only 2 months, but Im starting to get a life. I don't have to worry about my mom being alone, or I don't have to wonder "What will mom think if I do that" Of course I still have her voice in my head at times, which is creepy but comforting.
I'm actually saving money bc now I have bills to pay and I have to be responsible. I still spend money on things I don't need, but Im working on that. Everything can't change all at once bc I'd go nuts! LoL
Well, I'm ending here and for once, Im not in tears. :)
Luv ya all!
~***~ ME ~***~
Ok next subject....Tomorrow I'm going to work at 11 then going to the mall with Jenn and maybe Missy after 6..I want to look for a pair of red shoes for when we go to the rainforest cafe. I found a pair that I fell in love with at Payless and I pray to God they still have them im my size. They would really match my red shirt that I bought the other day...That was the most expensive shirt I own. It was $34. A little expensive, but I really liked it,lol.
Well, I seem to only update on the 6th lol..It's weird. I don't plan it that way, but it happens....
So today is 2 months for my mom. Its going really fast. I think it's better that way. I was watching boy meets world lastnight and they were talking about Shawns dad who died, and he was like " The person is never really gone, because they are always in your memory"...And thats the truth..Funny how it takes a show to make me realize that, but everything is going to be ok. I have my family and my friends...I mean yeah, I miss my mom more than anything, but sometimes I think she wanted us to live more and she knows I'd give up anything for her and I don't think she wanted me to do that anymore.
I know it's only 2 months, but Im starting to get a life. I don't have to worry about my mom being alone, or I don't have to wonder "What will mom think if I do that" Of course I still have her voice in my head at times, which is creepy but comforting.
I'm actually saving money bc now I have bills to pay and I have to be responsible. I still spend money on things I don't need, but Im working on that. Everything can't change all at once bc I'd go nuts! LoL
Well, I'm ending here and for once, Im not in tears. :)
Luv ya all!
~***~ ME ~***~