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wow, rough night last night.
joey has had a short temper and been easily annoyed lately, even when i do things that i do all the time, and last night it kind of started a huge argument and i flipped out. i basically spiraled into horrible self loathing and thought i had finally succeeded in pushing everyone in my life away. but every time i tried to tell joey how badly i was feeling, he just acted annoyed instead of actually listening and trying to make me feel better, which made me feel worse. i can not even explain how low i felt last night. it was bad. really really bad. if i had been alone, i probably would have done something really stupid.
of course, i feel better after sleeping, but the feeling is still there. it's very faint, but it's still there and it scares me. i need to shake it off, but i just can't seem to and it just keeps getting worse.
i'm not sure what to do.
joey has had a short temper and been easily annoyed lately, even when i do things that i do all the time, and last night it kind of started a huge argument and i flipped out. i basically spiraled into horrible self loathing and thought i had finally succeeded in pushing everyone in my life away. but every time i tried to tell joey how badly i was feeling, he just acted annoyed instead of actually listening and trying to make me feel better, which made me feel worse. i can not even explain how low i felt last night. it was bad. really really bad. if i had been alone, i probably would have done something really stupid.
of course, i feel better after sleeping, but the feeling is still there. it's very faint, but it's still there and it scares me. i need to shake it off, but i just can't seem to and it just keeps getting worse.
i'm not sure what to do.