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"The Plot To Bomb The Panhandle"
i've learned to let go.
come on.
here's a middle finger
coming straight from oca-l-a.
i appreciate your judgement.
it's proved that i can't trust a word you say.
those must be some pair of binoculars
that you see every move i make.
so i'll never be a liar,
but you'll always be two-faced.
you'll get what's coming to you.
you're blinded by your instincts.
i'm not your fucking game.
i'm not so easily beat.
i'm looking down at this mess that you've made.
and i can't believe that i stayed
so unhappy for so long.
where did I go wrong?
i've got to get out of this.
my hand is on the handle.
we're leaving everything behind.
goodbye for a lifetime.
i'll rip that scandalous bitch in two.
we'll bring the noise.
try to pretend that i never even knew your name,
'cause everything you are disgusts me.
(too bad I can't turn back time.)
so i wouldn't be here.
what I'd give for you to disappear.
so tell me girly how's your edge?
you've got nothing better to do.
i know why you can't see straight.
i thought you were better than this
but you're just like everyone else.
i'm looking down at this mess that you've made.
and i can't believe that i stayed
so unhappy for so long.
where did i go wrong?
i've got to get out of this.
my hand is on the handle.
we're leaving everything behind.
goodbye for a lifetime.
i'll make my stand,
right here with my friends.
get low.
now i know who my friends are.
i'm never coming home.
-A Day to Remember
this song is dedicated to joey's sister who is a conniving, whiny bitch who thinks she should get anything and everything she wants, no matter who she walks on to get it. (but it also reminds me of joey and ericalyn. haha.)
anyway, last night joey's sister skipped class again and asked me for the notes. i told her no because she shouldn't skipping and it's not my responsibility to get her the notes and let her take advantage of me when she skipped because she procrastinated on her drawing homework. she proceeded to flip out on me, call me a bitch, and tell me she thinks i'm a terrible girlfriend. i stayed clam and tried to defend myself somewhat while she continued to flip out on me and say i was a terrible student and i was failing all of my classes and that i don't know the definition of taking advantage of someone. oh and that i should put her in the middle of me and joey's arguements (which i have never done.) i told her i didn't want to talk to her anymore and that she was just upset because i wouldn't help her slack off. that made her flip out more and continue to throw insults at me which had nothing to do with the situation.
among those included her telling me i was being a drama queen for telling people i went to the hospital a few weeks ago because the hospital and urgent care aren't the same thing. so i told her sorry i don't have health insurance and can't afford to go to the ER, which she ignored and told me i was being a drama queen for not telling people i went to urgent care, to which i simply said it's just easier to say hospital, which she also ignored. mind you, this is coming from the person who has a fake stomach disease that continues to make her skip class even though every doctor says she's fine. AND the girl who got in a fender bender and decided she needed to go to the hospital 4 hours later because her head hurt and ended up getting a neck brace that she didn't need because the doctors couldn't find anything wrong with her.
i blocked her, but apparently i can still get her IMs and she wouldn't stop IMing me and insulting me no mateer how much i asked, so i finally told her to go fuck herself and she stopped talking. well then, being the mature person she is, she went and sent that part of the conversation to her mommy and called her complaining and saying i'm a negative bitch and she doesn't want to be my friend anymore because i swore at her and did all these terrible things (which she made up). so then joey's parents are pissed at me. awesome. fucking awesome. simply not sending her my notes turned into a personal attack on me, for no reason.
so i cried. really hard. for a long time. it just was so completely unfair that she could get away with that and i couldn't even tell my side of the story (the whole story). and of course her parents are going to believe her and take her side. but she gets to be a bitch to me all the time and i can't say anything about it because she is joey's sister. and she knows it and takes full advantage of it. she is so ridiculously mean to me, but because i have no concrete evidence that she says mean things to me, i can't do anything about it because she will just deny it. how ridiculously unfair is that? if this is what i have in store for me for the rest of my life if joey and i get married, it's going to be a loooong life. i can't wait to move away from everyone and everything. arizona is starting to look better and better.
i learned a lesson. she and i can no longer be friends. from now on she is joey's sister, and that is all she will ever be. i can't trust her. i learned the hard way, but i guess it could have been worse and it's a good thing to know. i should have just kept my damn mouth shut and sent her my notes. standing up for myself is how i always get myself in trouble.
conclusion: i am making a change in my life. i need to be more positive. no more being such a downer. no more complaining. optimism is something i severely lack and that needs to change.
so here it goes. wish me luck.
i've learned to let go.
come on.
here's a middle finger
coming straight from oca-l-a.
i appreciate your judgement.
it's proved that i can't trust a word you say.
those must be some pair of binoculars
that you see every move i make.
so i'll never be a liar,
but you'll always be two-faced.
you'll get what's coming to you.
you're blinded by your instincts.
i'm not your fucking game.
i'm not so easily beat.
i'm looking down at this mess that you've made.
and i can't believe that i stayed
so unhappy for so long.
where did I go wrong?
i've got to get out of this.
my hand is on the handle.
we're leaving everything behind.
goodbye for a lifetime.
i'll rip that scandalous bitch in two.
we'll bring the noise.
try to pretend that i never even knew your name,
'cause everything you are disgusts me.
(too bad I can't turn back time.)
so i wouldn't be here.
what I'd give for you to disappear.
so tell me girly how's your edge?
you've got nothing better to do.
i know why you can't see straight.
i thought you were better than this
but you're just like everyone else.
i'm looking down at this mess that you've made.
and i can't believe that i stayed
so unhappy for so long.
where did i go wrong?
i've got to get out of this.
my hand is on the handle.
we're leaving everything behind.
goodbye for a lifetime.
i'll make my stand,
right here with my friends.
get low.
now i know who my friends are.
i'm never coming home.
-A Day to Remember
this song is dedicated to joey's sister who is a conniving, whiny bitch who thinks she should get anything and everything she wants, no matter who she walks on to get it. (but it also reminds me of joey and ericalyn. haha.)
anyway, last night joey's sister skipped class again and asked me for the notes. i told her no because she shouldn't skipping and it's not my responsibility to get her the notes and let her take advantage of me when she skipped because she procrastinated on her drawing homework. she proceeded to flip out on me, call me a bitch, and tell me she thinks i'm a terrible girlfriend. i stayed clam and tried to defend myself somewhat while she continued to flip out on me and say i was a terrible student and i was failing all of my classes and that i don't know the definition of taking advantage of someone. oh and that i should put her in the middle of me and joey's arguements (which i have never done.) i told her i didn't want to talk to her anymore and that she was just upset because i wouldn't help her slack off. that made her flip out more and continue to throw insults at me which had nothing to do with the situation.
among those included her telling me i was being a drama queen for telling people i went to the hospital a few weeks ago because the hospital and urgent care aren't the same thing. so i told her sorry i don't have health insurance and can't afford to go to the ER, which she ignored and told me i was being a drama queen for not telling people i went to urgent care, to which i simply said it's just easier to say hospital, which she also ignored. mind you, this is coming from the person who has a fake stomach disease that continues to make her skip class even though every doctor says she's fine. AND the girl who got in a fender bender and decided she needed to go to the hospital 4 hours later because her head hurt and ended up getting a neck brace that she didn't need because the doctors couldn't find anything wrong with her.
i blocked her, but apparently i can still get her IMs and she wouldn't stop IMing me and insulting me no mateer how much i asked, so i finally told her to go fuck herself and she stopped talking. well then, being the mature person she is, she went and sent that part of the conversation to her mommy and called her complaining and saying i'm a negative bitch and she doesn't want to be my friend anymore because i swore at her and did all these terrible things (which she made up). so then joey's parents are pissed at me. awesome. fucking awesome. simply not sending her my notes turned into a personal attack on me, for no reason.
so i cried. really hard. for a long time. it just was so completely unfair that she could get away with that and i couldn't even tell my side of the story (the whole story). and of course her parents are going to believe her and take her side. but she gets to be a bitch to me all the time and i can't say anything about it because she is joey's sister. and she knows it and takes full advantage of it. she is so ridiculously mean to me, but because i have no concrete evidence that she says mean things to me, i can't do anything about it because she will just deny it. how ridiculously unfair is that? if this is what i have in store for me for the rest of my life if joey and i get married, it's going to be a loooong life. i can't wait to move away from everyone and everything. arizona is starting to look better and better.
i learned a lesson. she and i can no longer be friends. from now on she is joey's sister, and that is all she will ever be. i can't trust her. i learned the hard way, but i guess it could have been worse and it's a good thing to know. i should have just kept my damn mouth shut and sent her my notes. standing up for myself is how i always get myself in trouble.
conclusion: i am making a change in my life. i need to be more positive. no more being such a downer. no more complaining. optimism is something i severely lack and that needs to change.
so here it goes. wish me luck.