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alright, i actually have a second to write in here for once.
let's go in backwards order.
this quarter is going to be super busy. i have essentially the same number of classes and credits, but last quarter i could slack off a lot in most of my classes and this quarter, there is none of that. i have so much work in every class and have to pay attention in all of them big time, something i'm not very good at. i'm also working a few more hours than usual, which is good news.
essentially i have 8 straight hours of class on monday starting at 9am. then i have a 2 hour break, enough time to go home and eat dinner, and then i have to go to juggling for an hour and 1/2. then i have a 2 hour break again and then work until 2am. tuesday i have work 12-3 and nothing else, so that is good. wednesday i have 7 straight hours of class starting at 10am and then a 3 hours break for dinner and then another 2 hour class. thursday i have work 12.30-4ish and then class 4-6, not too bad. friday i have class 10-12 and that's it! thank god i have a few easy days, but mondays and wednesdays are just going to MURDER me.
i switched photo classes and i'm pretty excited about the one i'm in. i am insanely inspired by the first project and i can't fucking wait. which is funny because it's 3 different self portraits and i normall hate self portraits. i want to shoot now.
"spring break" was pretty good. it went by fast. i worked 7 hours a day which was exhausting. i essentially cleaned the entire store by myself, except for one aisle (no exaggeration). my favorite part of the day was when i got to go to lunch with the kids from the other store. good times. so basically i spent break working all day and spending time with joey at night. i'm glad we got some time together to not worry about anything. we made dinner together a few nights and ordered take out. i can't wait to live with him all the time. ^_^
and as for my brithday...it was AMAZING. i can honestly say, with no doubts, that it was the best birthday i've ever had. every other birthday i just felt like no one really cared, but this time was different. all the important people were there. even my amazing friends from home drove back from school just for me. i never thought anyone would do that for me. it's times like that that make me realize how truly lucky i am to have such amazing friends (and that i really haven't made any friends in college). my party was amazingly fun and a lot of people that i didn't even expect to come showed up. i'm pretty sure a lot of people thought it was lame, but i had a damn good time, so i don't care. thank you all who were there. i love you so much.
which brings me to a rant about college. everything people told me about it, was incorrect. i mean, i guess i had some fun last year, but that was really only because i lived in the dorms around people and no one had anything better to do. all of the people i thought were my friends last year, don't even really talk to me anymore. my real, true, good friends are in high school. most people say that you don't keep in touch with your friends from high school once you graduate because you're only really friends with them because they're there and that once you get to college you'll make the real friends that will mean more to you and last a lifetime. FALSE. all of the friends who truly care about me are the ones from home. no one here even gives a shit. if i put anything on the internet somewhere about feeling badly, the only people who respond are my friends from high school. and i would like to take this opportunity to again say how amazingly lucky i am to have them. i love them all so much and i hope i never lose them (the few that are left).
but not having friends in college is really putting me down. it actually makes me want to cry just writing about it now. i mean, all i really have is joey. he goes out with his friends all the time. and sometimes i have to sit home because i'm not old enough. i want him to be able to spend time with them and be able to have fun, but it just makes me feel so bad. i'm jealous because i want to spend time with him. i'm also jealous because i don't have friends i can go hang out with. i don't even have the opportunity to leave him home while i go out and have fun. i really don't have anyone and i feel like the only one. even his friends don't really care to try to get to know me. i'm just "joey's girlfriend." most of them don't even know my name and when i try to join in the conversation, they just just look at me oddly. only one of them makes me feel like he actually gives a shit and that's the only thing keeping me being able to deal with spending time with them.
i guess i've just been kind of ignoring it all year or hoping people were just too busy, but now it's really starting to get to me. really really. i just don't know what to do.
let's go in backwards order.
this quarter is going to be super busy. i have essentially the same number of classes and credits, but last quarter i could slack off a lot in most of my classes and this quarter, there is none of that. i have so much work in every class and have to pay attention in all of them big time, something i'm not very good at. i'm also working a few more hours than usual, which is good news.
essentially i have 8 straight hours of class on monday starting at 9am. then i have a 2 hour break, enough time to go home and eat dinner, and then i have to go to juggling for an hour and 1/2. then i have a 2 hour break again and then work until 2am. tuesday i have work 12-3 and nothing else, so that is good. wednesday i have 7 straight hours of class starting at 10am and then a 3 hours break for dinner and then another 2 hour class. thursday i have work 12.30-4ish and then class 4-6, not too bad. friday i have class 10-12 and that's it! thank god i have a few easy days, but mondays and wednesdays are just going to MURDER me.
i switched photo classes and i'm pretty excited about the one i'm in. i am insanely inspired by the first project and i can't fucking wait. which is funny because it's 3 different self portraits and i normall hate self portraits. i want to shoot now.
"spring break" was pretty good. it went by fast. i worked 7 hours a day which was exhausting. i essentially cleaned the entire store by myself, except for one aisle (no exaggeration). my favorite part of the day was when i got to go to lunch with the kids from the other store. good times. so basically i spent break working all day and spending time with joey at night. i'm glad we got some time together to not worry about anything. we made dinner together a few nights and ordered take out. i can't wait to live with him all the time. ^_^
and as for my brithday...it was AMAZING. i can honestly say, with no doubts, that it was the best birthday i've ever had. every other birthday i just felt like no one really cared, but this time was different. all the important people were there. even my amazing friends from home drove back from school just for me. i never thought anyone would do that for me. it's times like that that make me realize how truly lucky i am to have such amazing friends (and that i really haven't made any friends in college). my party was amazingly fun and a lot of people that i didn't even expect to come showed up. i'm pretty sure a lot of people thought it was lame, but i had a damn good time, so i don't care. thank you all who were there. i love you so much.
which brings me to a rant about college. everything people told me about it, was incorrect. i mean, i guess i had some fun last year, but that was really only because i lived in the dorms around people and no one had anything better to do. all of the people i thought were my friends last year, don't even really talk to me anymore. my real, true, good friends are in high school. most people say that you don't keep in touch with your friends from high school once you graduate because you're only really friends with them because they're there and that once you get to college you'll make the real friends that will mean more to you and last a lifetime. FALSE. all of the friends who truly care about me are the ones from home. no one here even gives a shit. if i put anything on the internet somewhere about feeling badly, the only people who respond are my friends from high school. and i would like to take this opportunity to again say how amazingly lucky i am to have them. i love them all so much and i hope i never lose them (the few that are left).
but not having friends in college is really putting me down. it actually makes me want to cry just writing about it now. i mean, all i really have is joey. he goes out with his friends all the time. and sometimes i have to sit home because i'm not old enough. i want him to be able to spend time with them and be able to have fun, but it just makes me feel so bad. i'm jealous because i want to spend time with him. i'm also jealous because i don't have friends i can go hang out with. i don't even have the opportunity to leave him home while i go out and have fun. i really don't have anyone and i feel like the only one. even his friends don't really care to try to get to know me. i'm just "joey's girlfriend." most of them don't even know my name and when i try to join in the conversation, they just just look at me oddly. only one of them makes me feel like he actually gives a shit and that's the only thing keeping me being able to deal with spending time with them.
i guess i've just been kind of ignoring it all year or hoping people were just too busy, but now it's really starting to get to me. really really. i just don't know what to do.