May 19, 2010 23:06
Despite the fact that i've been clean for nearly ten months, I still shake like crazy. My doctors can't say for sure if it'll ever subside. It's worse when I let my blood sugar get too low, but it's ever-present. Sometimes it's so bad I worry I'll chip a tooth while drinking from a glass. Between my carpal tunnel (which I really ought to get fixed now that I have insurance) and the shaking, I can't write to save my life. It's painful and my writing ends up looking like that of a second grader's.
I have the day off, and I'm making another trip to the nursery. I have room for a couple more plants in my garden, and I've decided on shasta daisies and some lavender. Perennials are my thing. I can't bother with new plants every year. I want to forge a relationship with my plants and watch them thrive, like my rubber tree plant that I harvested from the giant rubber tree plant where I was living in buffalo. I took a cutting and it's turned into a plant in it's own right, which was neat to witness. I still haven't decided where exactly to put the chinese lanterns; they are terribly invasive so I have to plant it somewhere where it won't mess with my other plants. I've been given permission to go bulb-crazy this fall, which will be great.