[ONESHOT] Hate You, Love You
Title: Hate You, Love You
Prompt 2: "I want you to smile, always. Even after I go."
Pairing: GDYB
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG-13
A/N: Yay! This is my second post for this challenge of
ymo1557. I want to thank her again for this wonderful challenge!
Want always to stay like this. In your arms.
Forever.
Yet in the end, you left me. You walked away from everything.
"I hate you, Youngbae."
Even that whisper didn't sound so convincing that you turned me on my back, my body between you and the bed. I closed my eyes and let your smell, your lips, your body, your warmth take me away from here. I hate you, Youngbae. I hate you because everytime you leave me and go to her, I take you back.
"I ..."
The three words have disappeared somewhere between your lips on mine, your body against mine, somewhere between the sounds could be heard in my room. Again I could not pronounce the words. I had you, I could not say. Did not get the time, when I wanted to say it. It was you who brought me to my climax. It was you who made me so hopeless, not daring to open my eyes. Because I know that sooner or later you will go again after I open my eyes. Blink twice, and you're gone.
Sooner or later, you'll go.
With a cry that filled my room, your body violently against mine, and sticky, my eyes shot open. Tears welled up in but I stopped myself. We tried to catch out breath. Your face in my neck, warmly, breathing against it. Only I was meant to fall asleep with you. But no. My eyes fell on the clock beside the bed, it was a quarter past one. My eyes closed again, quietly, counting the five minutes that you will leave me again alone. All alone. As I expected, you pulled back, gently, as if you wanted to offer me some time with you. Because you knew I wanted more than this. But I knew you couldn't do it her.
I turned on my side, my back to you, and counted the other five minutes that you took to change in your clothes and shut the door behind you. After you told me the only sense, that you knew was the only thing that made me live. Without you.
Weird but I know why you were saying those words. Again, again and again after you left. You know I will always obey you, you knew you were my everything. You always knew I let tears, although I do not want, because of you in my lonely room. You knew. Yet you went back to her. Why me?
Why did you pick me among all the other guys that you could choose? Why did you pick me to make love with you? Why did you choose me to be so hopeless in love, waiting for you every day?
Why me?
A warm feeling ran through my body as I felt your hand on my shoulder. You knew I was crying. I felt your lips on my shoulder, and I refused to turn and look at your face. No, you must not see me cry, knowing I'm cryiçng is enough for you. A tear fell down when you said the sense, that I was so used to hear it. Softly you whispered to me the sense that, hopeless, made me fell for you again.
"I want you to smile, always. Even after I go."
And you left.
But you knew that I will always obey.
And that made you come back to me, because you knew I will always wait for you.
Because this is me.
Jiyong.
Jiyong who is always waiting for you.
Prompt 2: "I want you to smile, always. Even after I go."
Pairing: GDYB
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG-13
A/N: Yay! This is my second post for this challenge of
ymo1557. I want to thank her again for this wonderful challenge!
Want always to stay like this. In your arms.
Forever.
Yet in the end, you left me. You walked away from everything.
"I hate you, Youngbae."
Even that whisper didn't sound so convincing that you turned me on my back, my body between you and the bed. I closed my eyes and let your smell, your lips, your body, your warmth take me away from here. I hate you, Youngbae. I hate you because everytime you leave me and go to her, I take you back.
"I ..."
The three words have disappeared somewhere between your lips on mine, your body against mine, somewhere between the sounds could be heard in my room. Again I could not pronounce the words. I had you, I could not say. Did not get the time, when I wanted to say it. It was you who brought me to my climax. It was you who made me so hopeless, not daring to open my eyes. Because I know that sooner or later you will go again after I open my eyes. Blink twice, and you're gone.
Sooner or later, you'll go.
With a cry that filled my room, your body violently against mine, and sticky, my eyes shot open. Tears welled up in but I stopped myself. We tried to catch out breath. Your face in my neck, warmly, breathing against it. Only I was meant to fall asleep with you. But no. My eyes fell on the clock beside the bed, it was a quarter past one. My eyes closed again, quietly, counting the five minutes that you will leave me again alone. All alone. As I expected, you pulled back, gently, as if you wanted to offer me some time with you. Because you knew I wanted more than this. But I knew you couldn't do it her.
I turned on my side, my back to you, and counted the other five minutes that you took to change in your clothes and shut the door behind you. After you told me the only sense, that you knew was the only thing that made me live. Without you.
Weird but I know why you were saying those words. Again, again and again after you left. You know I will always obey you, you knew you were my everything. You always knew I let tears, although I do not want, because of you in my lonely room. You knew. Yet you went back to her. Why me?
Why did you pick me among all the other guys that you could choose? Why did you pick me to make love with you? Why did you choose me to be so hopeless in love, waiting for you every day?
Why me?
A warm feeling ran through my body as I felt your hand on my shoulder. You knew I was crying. I felt your lips on my shoulder, and I refused to turn and look at your face. No, you must not see me cry, knowing I'm cryiçng is enough for you. A tear fell down when you said the sense, that I was so used to hear it. Softly you whispered to me the sense that, hopeless, made me fell for you again.
"I want you to smile, always. Even after I go."
And you left.
But you knew that I will always obey.
And that made you come back to me, because you knew I will always wait for you.
Because this is me.
Jiyong.
Jiyong who is always waiting for you.