[ONESHOT] Told You So
Title: Told You So
Pairings: GDYB
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG-13
Length: One-Shot
Summary: Youngbae knew his new relationship wasn’t going well when he suddenly called him that night. There had to be a reason. He knew it.
Beside a shocked expression, I was more surprised that it could be so early. I knew from the beginning that you were coming back. Back to me. But I didn’t thought it will be so early. With raised eyebrows, I looked at you as you nervously stood at my door that night, eyes fixed on the ground. I laughed. It's funny, really fuckin funny.
But my smile wandered away and when you looked me straight in the eyes with your puffy eyes. I bit my lip and nodded slightly. I knew it, I knew that your new relationship wasn’t going well. I already knew it when you called me hours ago. Because you wouldn’t call me if there was nothing wrong. You weren’t happy and I could see it.
"Youngbae-ah" you whispered and looked at me pleadingly. "Won’t you ask me in?"
Surprised, I looked stupidly to you. What is this? This isn’t the Jiyong I know. Usually you would just burst laughing and talking when you walk my house in without waiting for me response
"Yeah ... come in" I could finally release and put a serious face when I let you inside. When you walked past me, I had to hold myself back not to smell your scent. God, how I missed it.
When you finally took place, I grabbed a chair and sat in front of you. A long time we both said nothing. Until I started talking ...
"Youngbae~"
"Why~"
We both laughed, nervously you bite in your lips and nodded. "Why am I here?" you asked weakly.
I nodded as if I didn’t know why you were here. Dammit I knew it. It wasn’t what you expected, right? You said he was the only one. That you were in love. Yes, you said it. When you left me, you said that you are not going to come back. But here you are, Jiyong-ah. I knew it.
"No. I know why you're here. I hate to say it, but I told you so. If you leave me for him, you will start to feel awful, miserable. As I can see and I'm sure he isn’t like me. That he won’t make you feel, how I made you feel. Am I right?"
"I ..."
"Yes, I'm right." I snapped back, missing your voice. "If it were not so, you wouldn’t just run back to the past. You were the one who left me. And it's you who is coming back again. I told you, when you leave ... I won’t take you back."
‘My heart won’t allow me’ I thought and bit my lips hard when I saw your eyes tearful. Don’t cry. But I would still see you cry, cry only for once for me as I cried for you. Feel how I felt when you left.
Now you are crying louder, I can’t take it anymore and stood up. I sat down beside you and pulled you into my arms. Soothingly you.
"Don’t cry. You knew he won’t touch you like I do. You knew it, yet you left me. Yongie, why? My heart was enough.” I whispered this time and felt how you hugged me back. You sobbed and hugged me tighter. I just swallowed and tried not to feel the feelings that I wanted to forget. You were so close to me right now.
"I'm sorry" you whispered softly and pulled back. I wiped your tears and sighed as I stood up.
"Hm ... I think you should go" I said and looked out the window, not daring to see your face. I heard footsteps behind me, and I thought you were gone but when I turned you were standing right in front of me.
"I'm sorry, Youngbae-ah. ... I am stupid, idiot, crazy, abnormal, whatever you can call. I just ... I'm sorry. I was wrong and you were right. Perhaps you won’t believe me, but I ... I didn’t come back because he didn’t touch me like you touched me, he didn’t look at me how you did it, or how you made love to me. This was never the problem. I just want you back ... because I miss smiling. God, I don’t know when I laughed. I want to feel love and I can only feel when I’m with you, Youngbae. Please, if you don’t want me back, it's okay. But at least let me be your friend. Please, I am begging you." You cried and fell on the ground. "…Please”
With an open mouth, I looked at you and shook my head. "No…"
Months later
Quietly I opened my eyes and the delicious smells made my stomach growl. Yawning, I got up and walked into the kitchen.
A smile appeared on my lips when I saw you cook breakfast for us. God, my day will be always so incredibly perfect when I see you like this.
We weren’t back together, just friends. But I knew myself, I couldn’t say no to you long. I'm sure I will take you back as more than friends. But until that day, it feels good like this. I'm sure we will be together again if we just start it slow. Quietly and slowly, until we both recovered again.
The End
Pairings: GDYB
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG-13
Length: One-Shot
Summary: Youngbae knew his new relationship wasn’t going well when he suddenly called him that night. There had to be a reason. He knew it.
Beside a shocked expression, I was more surprised that it could be so early. I knew from the beginning that you were coming back. Back to me. But I didn’t thought it will be so early. With raised eyebrows, I looked at you as you nervously stood at my door that night, eyes fixed on the ground. I laughed. It's funny, really fuckin funny.
But my smile wandered away and when you looked me straight in the eyes with your puffy eyes. I bit my lip and nodded slightly. I knew it, I knew that your new relationship wasn’t going well. I already knew it when you called me hours ago. Because you wouldn’t call me if there was nothing wrong. You weren’t happy and I could see it.
"Youngbae-ah" you whispered and looked at me pleadingly. "Won’t you ask me in?"
Surprised, I looked stupidly to you. What is this? This isn’t the Jiyong I know. Usually you would just burst laughing and talking when you walk my house in without waiting for me response
"Yeah ... come in" I could finally release and put a serious face when I let you inside. When you walked past me, I had to hold myself back not to smell your scent. God, how I missed it.
When you finally took place, I grabbed a chair and sat in front of you. A long time we both said nothing. Until I started talking ...
"Youngbae~"
"Why~"
We both laughed, nervously you bite in your lips and nodded. "Why am I here?" you asked weakly.
I nodded as if I didn’t know why you were here. Dammit I knew it. It wasn’t what you expected, right? You said he was the only one. That you were in love. Yes, you said it. When you left me, you said that you are not going to come back. But here you are, Jiyong-ah. I knew it.
"No. I know why you're here. I hate to say it, but I told you so. If you leave me for him, you will start to feel awful, miserable. As I can see and I'm sure he isn’t like me. That he won’t make you feel, how I made you feel. Am I right?"
"I ..."
"Yes, I'm right." I snapped back, missing your voice. "If it were not so, you wouldn’t just run back to the past. You were the one who left me. And it's you who is coming back again. I told you, when you leave ... I won’t take you back."
‘My heart won’t allow me’ I thought and bit my lips hard when I saw your eyes tearful. Don’t cry. But I would still see you cry, cry only for once for me as I cried for you. Feel how I felt when you left.
Now you are crying louder, I can’t take it anymore and stood up. I sat down beside you and pulled you into my arms. Soothingly you.
"Don’t cry. You knew he won’t touch you like I do. You knew it, yet you left me. Yongie, why? My heart was enough.” I whispered this time and felt how you hugged me back. You sobbed and hugged me tighter. I just swallowed and tried not to feel the feelings that I wanted to forget. You were so close to me right now.
"I'm sorry" you whispered softly and pulled back. I wiped your tears and sighed as I stood up.
"Hm ... I think you should go" I said and looked out the window, not daring to see your face. I heard footsteps behind me, and I thought you were gone but when I turned you were standing right in front of me.
"I'm sorry, Youngbae-ah. ... I am stupid, idiot, crazy, abnormal, whatever you can call. I just ... I'm sorry. I was wrong and you were right. Perhaps you won’t believe me, but I ... I didn’t come back because he didn’t touch me like you touched me, he didn’t look at me how you did it, or how you made love to me. This was never the problem. I just want you back ... because I miss smiling. God, I don’t know when I laughed. I want to feel love and I can only feel when I’m with you, Youngbae. Please, if you don’t want me back, it's okay. But at least let me be your friend. Please, I am begging you." You cried and fell on the ground. "…Please”
With an open mouth, I looked at you and shook my head. "No…"
Months later
Quietly I opened my eyes and the delicious smells made my stomach growl. Yawning, I got up and walked into the kitchen.
A smile appeared on my lips when I saw you cook breakfast for us. God, my day will be always so incredibly perfect when I see you like this.
We weren’t back together, just friends. But I knew myself, I couldn’t say no to you long. I'm sure I will take you back as more than friends. But until that day, it feels good like this. I'm sure we will be together again if we just start it slow. Quietly and slowly, until we both recovered again.
The End