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Ok so since i got up way to early and i have nothing to do for another 40 minutes i will make a better post than yesterdays.
To start CMU won yet another football game last night making us 5-0 in the MAC which is flippin sweet. Go figure that the chippewas and the tigers both are awesome in the same year. GO STEROIDS!!!! in the water of course. Which brings me to another point, i am now convinced that Armagedon is upon us. First for the afore mentioned and for the fact that my mother is apparently cool with me drinking now. We even joked about getting drunk together on my 21st....which she may be worse than me if she hasnt been drunk since she was 25. So the fact that the tension is gone is a real relief.
Ok as to the problem i mentioned yesterday. Its kind of lame to most people and alot of you wont understand but. I miss home like a mo fo. Anyone that knows me knows i am a huge mommas girl and daddys girl and not being home since school started is stressing me out. I need that....stable environment every now and then. Another thing is (this is even lamer) my roomies always have their boyfriends here and they are so sickenly cute together. It makes me miserable to know that no matter what i do, i can't even get a guy to look in my direction. I've changed who i am drastically from last year, i no longer have the "i dont care what i look like" feeling and have been taking pride in who i am. But alas this doesnt seem to change a thing. It seems stupid to be hung up on something like this but, its been over 2 years. 2 years with no hug, no simple smile, no saying i love you even when they dont mean it but thats what makes it nice sometimes. Its the little things that matter to me, although i dont mind the kissing and shit like that, but i can hold out on that awhile longer. And lets face it for the last 2 years i have made a total of like 4 friends here at central. To put it shortly...im lonely.
The bright side? I am coming out of my shell even more so this has helped. I am no longer a hermit and it has made me happier. So now that i put you all through that mini rant...Thank you.
Extra tip: I have now lost a total of 35 lbs, the freshman and sophomore 15's are gone and i am into the highschool 30...25 more pounds and i will be where my goal is, slowly but surely getting there.
To start CMU won yet another football game last night making us 5-0 in the MAC which is flippin sweet. Go figure that the chippewas and the tigers both are awesome in the same year. GO STEROIDS!!!! in the water of course. Which brings me to another point, i am now convinced that Armagedon is upon us. First for the afore mentioned and for the fact that my mother is apparently cool with me drinking now. We even joked about getting drunk together on my 21st....which she may be worse than me if she hasnt been drunk since she was 25. So the fact that the tension is gone is a real relief.
Ok as to the problem i mentioned yesterday. Its kind of lame to most people and alot of you wont understand but. I miss home like a mo fo. Anyone that knows me knows i am a huge mommas girl and daddys girl and not being home since school started is stressing me out. I need that....stable environment every now and then. Another thing is (this is even lamer) my roomies always have their boyfriends here and they are so sickenly cute together. It makes me miserable to know that no matter what i do, i can't even get a guy to look in my direction. I've changed who i am drastically from last year, i no longer have the "i dont care what i look like" feeling and have been taking pride in who i am. But alas this doesnt seem to change a thing. It seems stupid to be hung up on something like this but, its been over 2 years. 2 years with no hug, no simple smile, no saying i love you even when they dont mean it but thats what makes it nice sometimes. Its the little things that matter to me, although i dont mind the kissing and shit like that, but i can hold out on that awhile longer. And lets face it for the last 2 years i have made a total of like 4 friends here at central. To put it shortly...im lonely.
The bright side? I am coming out of my shell even more so this has helped. I am no longer a hermit and it has made me happier. So now that i put you all through that mini rant...Thank you.
Extra tip: I have now lost a total of 35 lbs, the freshman and sophomore 15's are gone and i am into the highschool 30...25 more pounds and i will be where my goal is, slowly but surely getting there.