"I am lost without you"
I don't even know what to say right now. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around what happened. I thought I was prepared to face Cordy's death. I thought I could handle it, but I was so very wrong. I was basically weeping the entire episode and now it's over, truly over and it's breaking my heart. Yes, the episode was beautiful. Yes, Cordelia was just as I'd remembered her. She was the old Cordelia, the sassy-tell-it-like-it-is caring woman that I came to love and adore basically from the beginning. She brought the feel of the show back for me and made me miss the good ol' times. And, my god, the C/A moments. I almost feel like they were all I could ask for, though I am a greedy shipper and would've loved more, like Cordy not dying for one. But the moments we got, the ending, the phone call :( they just made me realize how in love I am with this ship and how perfect they are for each other.
GODDDDDD!!!!
I'm sitting here trying to figure out how I feel and I just don't know.
I will mention though that "Undrowning" was absolutely beautiful. Well first of all I didn't stop crying after the episode, so when I went to read the fic I was already a mess, but the fic just completely undid me. I don't know if there'll be something of a funeral or anything like that in the next episode, though I hope to god there is, but if there isn't I'm so glad I read that fic. I mean, I was really crying like a baby. And the poem!
I can't make comprehensible thoughts/sentences right now, so maybe a post later that tries to further explain how I feel once I get my bearings.
*cries*
ETA: SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH HIM TIL THE END!!! SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH HIM WHEN HE SHANSHU'D!!!! SHE PROMISED HIM! SHE TOLD HIM SHE WOULD BE THERE WITH HIM TIL THE END!!!!!! *bawls*
GODDDDDD!!!!
I'm sitting here trying to figure out how I feel and I just don't know.
I will mention though that "Undrowning" was absolutely beautiful. Well first of all I didn't stop crying after the episode, so when I went to read the fic I was already a mess, but the fic just completely undid me. I don't know if there'll be something of a funeral or anything like that in the next episode, though I hope to god there is, but if there isn't I'm so glad I read that fic. I mean, I was really crying like a baby. And the poem!
I can't make comprehensible thoughts/sentences right now, so maybe a post later that tries to further explain how I feel once I get my bearings.
*cries*
ETA: SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH HIM TIL THE END!!! SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH HIM WHEN HE SHANSHU'D!!!! SHE PROMISED HIM! SHE TOLD HIM SHE WOULD BE THERE WITH HIM TIL THE END!!!!!! *bawls*