Bitterness
No matter how close you thought you were. How strong that bond of love was. It can never be the same if you aren't together. A friendship is lost. Time have changed. You're left in the dust thinking about your other half while they're moving on to something else. Questions arise in your head about whether or not it was the right thing to do, and even though you're sure it was, you still regret the changes it has caused. I'm not the one anymore. I'm not that special someone anymore. Someone else has taken my top spot. Fucking drop me like the whole 2 years meant nothing to you. Thanks. Drinking the nights away, trying to avoid the pain by filling your day with useless but necessary tasks. It works for awhile but then there's that one moment where you think back about the good times, the happy times, and you miss them more than anything else in the entire fucking world. You want what you had when what you had was at it's best. Forget the bad times and the worse times, just remember when you two were standing there, kissing in the moonlight, all alone in thr mountains, on the beach, in the bedroom. All alone, just the two of you, with no one else in the picture or in your thoughts. So perfect, so meaningful.. But then that memory just gets blown away by the hate that surrounds you in present day and time. I'm not the one anymore. I can't be anything to him anymore. Not even a friend. Because it's too hard to forget the love that we thought would last forever.That makes me feel more alone than ever. When the one person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, who knew me better than anyone, who was my second half...just wants me out of their life. Doesn't care enough to call, write, text, email, contact me in any way. It's all on me now. And any effort I make gets little por no response, and no effort in return. I just don't understand how you can forget someone, and completely block them out of your life, when the day before you were head over heels in love with them. I don't understand. Boy and Girl meet. Boy and girl become friends. Boy and girl fall in love for a reason. It was a fucking good reason too, and now it's forgotten. Doesn't matter anymore. A simple phone call is too much to ask for, and a friendship is unattainable. It doesn't matter how I feel anymore. I doesn't matter what I want anymore. I'm erased, done, nice girls finish last.