scattered thoughts written in a choppy way is my specialty
hey, future. yes, you, future. GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD! i used to never think about you, but you stand there like an ugly feature on my face that won't go away. please, leave and stop reminding me that if i stay on this path, i most probably won't succeed.
this is one of my only fears.
the future.
yes, i know. i should live in the present.
well i know how to do that too well.
it's not good advice for me.
in fact, it's the path for self destruction. i live so much in the present that my future's looking shitty.
i care.
not enough to change.
so do i really care?
i care about the possible reality of being a 20-something nobody.
but does this society know what's really important?
this is the conflict.
see, what i think is important is living a life by feel.
doing what ever you feel is right.
not what's taught.
but what's being a taught is making me scared.
because i can't do it.
i can, but what i want conflicts with it.
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AH.
this is one of my only fears.
the future.
yes, i know. i should live in the present.
well i know how to do that too well.
it's not good advice for me.
in fact, it's the path for self destruction. i live so much in the present that my future's looking shitty.
i care.
not enough to change.
so do i really care?
i care about the possible reality of being a 20-something nobody.
but does this society know what's really important?
this is the conflict.
see, what i think is important is living a life by feel.
doing what ever you feel is right.
not what's taught.
but what's being a taught is making me scared.
because i can't do it.
i can, but what i want conflicts with it.
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AH.