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it seems the world is pairing off, and to be honest.. it partially makes me sick.
"we" this, "we" that. i don't know what "we're" doing later. we we we we. damn is that ever annoying. all my friends are getting that "significant other".. and it's not that i'm sad that i don't have one. i could have one right now if that was what i wanted. but it's not. i -don't- want that. i hate the way it is in the world that you have to find this one other person to love and to base your life off of. why can't everyone just live together without all that crap to complicate things.
most of my "friends" aren't even my friends anymore. everyone's traveling in these two-person-units. and they can't ever be separated. it's pathetic that it amazes me when i actually can have a separate moment with one of them.
i have to admit, sometimes the single life -is- kinda lonely when you're always third wheeling. not that i mind it. i actually have a lot of fun most of the time.. but sometimes it just kinda sucks to see everyone in pairs and you're still wandering around trying to find out which way is the right way for -you-. i guess the answer to my question, "why?".. is just that.. loneliness. people can't handle being alone. they need that safe feeling of knowing they always have that one person even when all others aren't there. suddenly the once best friends seem microscopic in the big picture because this one person has guarenteed that they will be there over all others. so that in case of failure.. there is one thing that is guarenteed. but the truth is, there are no guarentees in life... and in the end the one thats really needed is the best friend.. as we find out when the fairytale ends and hours are being spent every night talking to those who once seemed so microscopic. is it worth it being locked away in a cardboard box, only to be taken out when needed? all of a sudden people assume that they can summon you back and that nothing will be changed.. and then they wonder "why the attitude?"... are people really that ignorant?
maybe i've just become bitter and cynical... scratch that... i -have- become bitter and cynical... Ha.. funny how these things happen, huh?
"how i long for the old view..."