I FUCKING LOVE HIM!
I'm so lame, because, like, every time I see Jesse, my insides kinda melt, and I feel all pukey. And like, I thought I'd grown up so much and had kind of moved on, but I never moved on from Jesse. He still has the same affect on me he always has. And then, how every time he comes to my door, he always brings me something... like flowers or candy... things I don't even care about... he's like a UPS guy or something! It's so cute... I wouldn't even care if he never got me a present for my birthday or christmas or anything, him on my doorstep wrapped in official USAFA uniform wrapping paper, is present enough for me... and I know he makes, like, less than I do... but he is so generous. It almost pisses me off. Except it doesn't. And he always just picks me up and squeezes me and twirls me around and then sets me down and kisses me... and then I just die... and I've been seeing him almost every day lately because he actually has some time off, for once... and for some people, that's the norm, but for me, it's overwhelming... and I know I'm acting like a total girl right now but for once in my life I'm just sooo happy and in love and
I feel like no matter how many times that bitch stepmother of mine tries to push me down it doesn't matter because she's just fucking jealous that the only guy she could ever get is my dad... who, honestly, as much as I hate him sometimes, I really do love to death... but without a woman, he's like, what the fuck do I do with myself? I think at that point in his life, when he met her, he would have married anyone just so he wouldn't be alone. Which makes me sad, because he ultimately ruined his life, and mine. And I know that deep down, somewhere, he must know that. And that must hurt him. Too bad he doesn't believe in divorce unless the other person asks for it, and since she married him for money and status, as long as they still have it, she obviously won't divorce him...
But anyway, back to being sickeningly happy. That bitch is fucking jealous of me because she knows that no good looking, dedicated, sweet guy who could have any girl he wants would ever pick her. But he's not the only one who wants me. I have my pick of wonderful, attractive guys, but as much as people like to criticize him/us, I just know in my heart that he's the one for me. I think after that nightmare with Aaron, we've both been reassured of that fact, and we treat each other even better now. And eventually, after a year or two of college for me, we may even get our own apartment together, if things work out (and I really do think they will) and I hope everyone will be happy for us (except for Susan, she deserves to be the miserable bitch she truly is). By the way, it's really hard to be a good Christian when you have Satan wrapped up in a crucifix necklace living in your very own house, did anyone else know this? :-D
Jesse mé chomh mór sin i ngrá leat i dtólamh!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like no matter how many times that bitch stepmother of mine tries to push me down it doesn't matter because she's just fucking jealous that the only guy she could ever get is my dad... who, honestly, as much as I hate him sometimes, I really do love to death... but without a woman, he's like, what the fuck do I do with myself? I think at that point in his life, when he met her, he would have married anyone just so he wouldn't be alone. Which makes me sad, because he ultimately ruined his life, and mine. And I know that deep down, somewhere, he must know that. And that must hurt him. Too bad he doesn't believe in divorce unless the other person asks for it, and since she married him for money and status, as long as they still have it, she obviously won't divorce him...
But anyway, back to being sickeningly happy. That bitch is fucking jealous of me because she knows that no good looking, dedicated, sweet guy who could have any girl he wants would ever pick her. But he's not the only one who wants me. I have my pick of wonderful, attractive guys, but as much as people like to criticize him/us, I just know in my heart that he's the one for me. I think after that nightmare with Aaron, we've both been reassured of that fact, and we treat each other even better now. And eventually, after a year or two of college for me, we may even get our own apartment together, if things work out (and I really do think they will) and I hope everyone will be happy for us (except for Susan, she deserves to be the miserable bitch she truly is). By the way, it's really hard to be a good Christian when you have Satan wrapped up in a crucifix necklace living in your very own house, did anyone else know this? :-D
Jesse mé chomh mór sin i ngrá leat i dtólamh!!!!!!!!!!