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20 years ago I... began this life of mine and had no idea what it could be or what could become of it.
15 years ago I... was 5yrs old and enjoying life, school and the company and companionship of my brother,and i had a really really ugly haircut.
10 years ago I... I was 10, and my sister was born, and my life took a complete turn in everything i had grown to believe and the course i thought my life would take. 10 years ago depression sank in for the first time, deeply.
5 years ago I... I was living life up at Amberview. i was in to drugs and fun and skipping school, not all the time. i was happy and content with my life and the joys and experiences that it held.
3 years ago I... I thought that i had fallen in love and never could have guessed that it would have nearly destroyed me. i started poppin pills and nearly died. i moved in with my granparents and wanted a dramatic shift in my life... I got it.
1 year ago I... My life made no sense, it was chaoitic and i was engaged to the wrong guy. My life did a 360' when i found out about lies and deciet, i was crushed, destroyed, depressed, falsely determined... i was prepared to live a life i didnt want
So far this past year I... I have experienced life like i never thought possible. my eyes have opened up and i have realized so many things. I have met...or re-met Nick and hes helped me through so much, helped me accomplish so much, internally and mentally. Ive learned alot about myself by talking to him, ive learned alot about what I really want from life. so far this past year, i have really lived.
Yesterday I... tried not to cry but did and realized everything probably will work out, just all in good time, if there is such a thing. Yesterday I stared at his pictures remembering how close he once was and how happy he made me, i stared at his pictures and realized how far away he was now. Yesterday I realized how gorgeous he is as a person... how much i miss him, how much he means to me... yesterday i fell in love with him all over again.
Today I... have learned to take his advice and say what is on my mind instead of waiting and although i dont know what good it gets me, she knows how i feel. Today I have hope and happiness...
Tomorrow I will... do my damnedest to get my life goin on the track that i need it to be on to achieve what I want
In the next year I will... hopefully fall in love with him all over again. In the next year I will have prayed a hundred times things work out and possibly be in New Hampshire. In the next year I will definitely have moved out of Washington, no matter where else it is. In November, I may have guts to take the flight to Paris and see the people that always think of me, that I've never even seen. In the next year I will be able to say that I have lived like I wanted to live, i will be happy... I will be free!
15 years ago I... was 5yrs old and enjoying life, school and the company and companionship of my brother,and i had a really really ugly haircut.
10 years ago I... I was 10, and my sister was born, and my life took a complete turn in everything i had grown to believe and the course i thought my life would take. 10 years ago depression sank in for the first time, deeply.
5 years ago I... I was living life up at Amberview. i was in to drugs and fun and skipping school, not all the time. i was happy and content with my life and the joys and experiences that it held.
3 years ago I... I thought that i had fallen in love and never could have guessed that it would have nearly destroyed me. i started poppin pills and nearly died. i moved in with my granparents and wanted a dramatic shift in my life... I got it.
1 year ago I... My life made no sense, it was chaoitic and i was engaged to the wrong guy. My life did a 360' when i found out about lies and deciet, i was crushed, destroyed, depressed, falsely determined... i was prepared to live a life i didnt want
So far this past year I... I have experienced life like i never thought possible. my eyes have opened up and i have realized so many things. I have met...or re-met Nick and hes helped me through so much, helped me accomplish so much, internally and mentally. Ive learned alot about myself by talking to him, ive learned alot about what I really want from life. so far this past year, i have really lived.
Yesterday I... tried not to cry but did and realized everything probably will work out, just all in good time, if there is such a thing. Yesterday I stared at his pictures remembering how close he once was and how happy he made me, i stared at his pictures and realized how far away he was now. Yesterday I realized how gorgeous he is as a person... how much i miss him, how much he means to me... yesterday i fell in love with him all over again.
Today I... have learned to take his advice and say what is on my mind instead of waiting and although i dont know what good it gets me, she knows how i feel. Today I have hope and happiness...
Tomorrow I will... do my damnedest to get my life goin on the track that i need it to be on to achieve what I want
In the next year I will... hopefully fall in love with him all over again. In the next year I will have prayed a hundred times things work out and possibly be in New Hampshire. In the next year I will definitely have moved out of Washington, no matter where else it is. In November, I may have guts to take the flight to Paris and see the people that always think of me, that I've never even seen. In the next year I will be able to say that I have lived like I wanted to live, i will be happy... I will be free!